"𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐃 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄" - 𝐊𝐓𝐇

𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 - 10

𝖯𝗅𝖺𝗒𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝖺𝖼𝗄𝗀𝗋𝗈𝗎𝗇𝖽: "4 𝗈'𝖼𝗅𝗈𝖼𝗄" , "𝗌𝗈𝖿𝗍𝖼𝗈𝗋𝖾" , "𝖽𝖾𝗃𝖺 𝗏𝗎" , "𝗋𝖾𝖿𝗅𝖾𝖼𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇" , "𝖻𝗅𝗎𝖾 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗀𝗋𝖾𝗒"

𝗬/𝗻'𝘀 𝗣𝗢𝗩:

After embarrassing myself successfully and having a dinner in a restaurant, we headed back to his place. He literally owns a luxurious castle. We both entered in the mansion and all the maids and guards bowed and greeted him.

"This is your room" he said while pointing a room.

"Go and get fresh, come when I call you" he said and went to the opposite room of my room. Maybe it's his room?

I went to my room and decided to take a shower. After that, I was standing in the balcony and I was in deep thoughts

What's happening around me actually?

Was it a good decision?

To trusting him?

"This man is unpredictable and mysterious, full of surprises" I mumbled

"Indeed" I heard someone said in his deep voice and I flinched. I looked behind and saw its him?

"W-what are you d-doing here.. couldn't you just knock the door before coming in?!"

"I did, but you were so lost in your thoughts that's why you didn't hear it"

Oh..

Its my fault then

"So, you were thinking about me ?" He asked

"It's not like that, to be honest, you're so unpredictable and mysterious. That's what I was thinking"

"Not a lie anyways."

I nodded slightly

"Tell me something about yourself" he said

Something about me ?

What should I say?

That I have two hands, two legs, two ears, two eyes, a brain and a shitty fate??

Fuck..

Im not used to it.

"I dont know" it's all I could say

"You don't know anything about yourself?"

"There's nothing to know about me" I paused for a moment, "And I just know about myself that I hate myself so fucking much"

He looked at me, I can see something in his eyes. They weren't emotionless as they looked like all the time.

I felt like

There was something called "emotions" in his eyes.

What magic did my three sentences do?

𝗧𝗮𝗲𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴'𝘀 𝗣𝗢𝗩:

After she said this, I froze. I got the flashbacks of my past. I used to feel this way too. I got hurt so much that I was gonna do suicide too.

I see my reflection in your eyes.

𝗳𝗹𝗮𝘀𝗵𝗯𝗮𝗰𝗸𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗳𝗶𝗳𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀 𝗮𝗴𝗼:

Pain

Its all I can feel now.

Everything's so tiring. Right now I'm in a stage of my life that I feel like im disappointing everyone including me. I feel dead inside. But who understands me? No fucking one.