Taehyung's POV:
"We're 'just friends' right? But..."
I couldn't finish the sentence, the words catching in my throat. I looked away and my gaze fixed on a spot on the wall. It was one thing to admit I had feelings for her, but to admit that I'd pushed her away because it had become too hard to deal with my own emotions that was a whole other level of vulnerability I wasn't used to
"I... I didn't want to feel more about you...maybe the ten years age gap between us and my achromatopsia is the problem?.. I've tried... I've tried to push those thoughts aside, to ignore the feelings that were growing inside me, but seeing you every day, having you close but not close enough... it's driving me insane." I said in a low tone
"Your... Achromatopsia was never a problem..not at least to me" she said and my breath hitched in my chest at her words. I'd assumed that my condition would be a major factor in her feelings towards me, I let out a shaky exhale, my voice barely a whisper as I spoke,
"You... you don't mind it? Even though I'm... different?"
"Different?? You're a human and that's what matters... I don't mind if you see the world as the old black and white tv..."
"You... you really don't mind? Even though I can't experience the world like others do, the colors, the hues..." I swallowed hard, my voice was choked with emotion
"Colours? It doesn't matter to me..."
A small, sad smile tugged at the corner of my lips as I gazed at her, my heart was aching with a mixture of gratitude and longing. Her acceptance of my condition of who I was, it meant more to me than words could express. I took a step closer, bridging the distance between us
"You... you are something else. Most people would... they'd find me broken. Unfixable. Different. But not you. You look at me... and you see past it all."
She whispered lowly, "You're not damaged."
The word "damaged" hit my heart like a dagger. It was a word I'd heard too many times before, a label I'd grown tired of carrying on my shoulders.
"Not damaged..." I repeated softly, "You see me... for who I am, not what I lack."
My heart fluttered as she took my hands in hers, the simple gesture sending a wave of warmth through my body. I gazed at her, the feel of her skin against mine...again..after so many days..creating a whirlwind of emotions within me. I gently squeezed her hands,
"You... you're making me feel things I shouldn't..." I whispered
"Shh.." my heart skipped a beat as she shushed me with a finger on my lips. The sensation of her soft skin against my lips sent a shiver down my spine, and I found myself unable to speak, caught in the intensity of the moment
"You're thinking that you're unworthy for me, but in real, I'm the unworthy one... y'know?" She asked me
"No, no, no. You're not the unworthy one. You... you're everything a man like me could ever ask for. You're strong, smart, beautiful... I'm the one who's unworthy of you." I shook my head vehemently, the grip on her hands tightened
"Taehyung..." She whispered and paused for a moment "You may think that you're unworthy but trust me... you're the most perfect man I've ever seen... inside and out"
"I... I'm not perfect" I said as my voice was hoarse. "I've made so many mistakes, done things I'm not proud of. How could you see me as perfect?" My heart thundered in my chest as she whispered my name, after so long.. the sincerity in her voice catching me off guard. Her words sent a wave of conflicting emotions through me: comfort, gratitude, love, and confusion.
"Perfect for me." She murmured
"For you... just for you" I repeated softly, the words wrapping around my heart, making it a little lighter. "But... what does that mean?"
"I feel that way... too"
My grip on her hands tightened, her words sending another wave of emotion coursing through me. I could feel the truth in her words, the sincerity in her voice, she wasn't kidding, and it made my heart ache with a mixture of hope and fear
"You... you do?" I whispered, "You... feel the same way I do?"
"I do.." her simple, whispered admission sent a jolt through my heart. I gazed at her, I couldn't believe my ears. She felt the same way I did, despite all my faults, all my flaws..?
"I really do.." she whispered again as she hugged me, I wrapped my arms around her, pulling her closer, as if I could meld our bodies together, make myself a part of her. I buried my face in her hair, inhaling her scent, letting the reality of her words sink in. She felt the same way. It was almost too good to be true, and yet... here she were, in my arms, confessing her feelings.
"I hate people, people are so scary.." she paused, "They never treated me the way you did, the way you loved, the way you cherished, the way you admired...me and only me.."
"Mmm.. they didn't treat you the way you deserve.. they didn't love and cherish you the way you should be loved and cherished.. but I will.. I'll always value and cherish you, doll.."
I pulled her closer as we kissed, my arms wrapping around her possessively as I deepened the kiss, a wave of emotion and feeling washing over me.. I looked at her eyes deeply as I said,
"Mmm.. doll.. you have no idea how much you mean to me.." I continued kissing her, my tongue was delving into her mouth as I explored every inch of her mouth
"I missed us.." I could feel her tears on my lips and I pulled away, gently cupping her face in my hands as I spoke in a soft, tender tone,
"Doll, don't cry.. I missed us too.. I missed you so much.. I'm never letting go of you again.."
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