The Lost Alpha Prince (Book 15 of the Regal Eclipse Pack Series)

Chapter 38

Maddie wanted to hurry through her shower but made herself slow down and take her time. She shaved and soaped up her entire body, then rinsed off. She had every intention of getting naked with John tonight and she wanted to be perfect for him.

She'd shoved Rhys's words out of her mind for the time being. She knew John had no idea what he was, and she still suspected that he was a werewolf. It was the only thing that made sense. How else would he know the name of Sierra Nevada Pack and the name of the Alpha? It wasn't like that was common knowledge. He'd have to be tied some way to the werewolf community. Which meant Luke might possibly know who John was.

Knowing he was stronger than Rhys though had made her take pause. Rhys was the Beta of Sierra Nevada. He'd been forced to take the position early because his father had been involved in an accident and was no longer able to carry the full responsibilities of being Beta. Rhys was currently twenty-four, and unmated. He'd only been Beta for a few months now.

Rita had been surprised when Rhys had agreed to keep his job at the saloon for the time being. She had expected him to quit once he'd become Beta, but Luke had agreed to it. She'd been really surprised when he'd wanted the job in the first place, though he didn't work as much as the others. He was only there three nights a week. Maddie had a feeling he wouldn't be there too much longer either, especially when Luke's son took over, which wasn't too far in the distant future.

Most of the guys that worked at the saloon did so until they found their mates, then they'd move on. No she-wolf wanted her mate dancing for other women, and Maddie was beginning to understand why. She'd hated tonight and she really didn't like John working there either. But it was something, a job that he probably very much needed.

But if John had beaten Rhys in a match, then she knew it would catch attention, and that concerned her. Rhys would be the second strongest one in the pack, behind the Alpha. Was John actually an Alpha wolf? Even the thought of that kind of turned her on, but then she realized he might have a pack out there somewhere that was missing their Alpha, and would he want a human Luna? Probably not. She'd be a weakness for him. That thought didn't make her happy at all, but there had to be a reason she was mated to an Alpha werewolf. Right?  

She didn't know how old he was either but she did know the Alpha took over at twenty-five. If John was under twenty-five some pack out there was probably freaking out because their Alpha's heir was missing. Unless he wasn't the heir. He'd still be an Alpha wolf though.

Or he might have already taken over the pack and some pack was straight out missing their Alpha. And Luke might very well be aware of that.

Maddie knew there was only one werewolf pack in California. She'd asked Andre about it before and he told her that there used to be two but one of Luke's ancestors had wiped out the other pack. Maddie had been appalled by that but it has driven home the fact that these guys were apex predators. They weren't human, or at least a part deep down inside of them wasn't. That wild part of them that Maddie didn't fully understand.

But this very well might come to a screeching halt if he ever got his memory back, and she had to deal with that. And for her to not want him to get his memories back would be incredibly selfish. She couldn't even imagine what he was going through, not remembering anything about himself, including his own name and who his family was. She couldn't even imagine how lonely that must feel for him.

But if John really was an Alpha werewolf and had his own pack, he might not deem her worthy enough to be his mate. And he might very well end this, for the good of his pack. That thought gave Maddie pause.

Would she be able to handle that heartbreak? She'd have to. She wouldn't have a choice if he chose to end this. She'd have to walk away. She'd have to deal with her heart being broken by him, depending on how long they were together. A small part of her didn't even want to go to him, afraid of what might happen, but she also knew even if things were to end right now, her heart would already be broken. There was such a strong connection between them.

She also knew that John was going to be on the pack's radar now as well, and he might get kicked off of Sierra Nevada's pack lands. Possibly as a threat. She breathed out slowly. What if he did have to leave? Could she go with him? Would he want her to? She'd be leaving behind her family, but at the same time, for the most part, she didn't want to stay here forever. She didn't care if she inherited the hotel and saloon. Cassandra could have it.

If they left, where would they go? Maddie had some money, but she'd have to find a job somewhere to support them both. John probably wouldn't be able to work since he didn't have an identity. How did one go about creating an identity for one's self when you had lost your memories? There had to be a way. If it came down to that, she'd have to do some research and find out how to get him an identity.

Maddie realized she was getting way ahead of herself. She didn't know what was going to happen. The main thing she knew was that she was in danger of getting her heart ripped out though. She sighed. Well, in for a penny, in for a pound. 

She got out of the shower, dried off, and pulled her red hair out of the bun, brushing it out, then pulled on a tank top and some soft cotton shorts. She slipped on some flip flops, glanced around her room, then walked out. She was nervous about seeing him again but she was dying  to as well.

Maddie got on the elevator and took it down to the first floor, then slipped out and headed down the hall to his room. Her body was humming with anticipation. She stopped at his door, took a deep breath and knocked. Hopefully he was ready for her. Though frankly, if he came to the door again in just a towel, she might just pull it off of him. Consequences be damned.

What was the worst he would do? Bend her over his knee and spank her? Bring it. She'd never had a guy spank her before. She'd tried to get her ex to do so, but he'd thought she was crazy. He'd told her more than once that he wasn't beating her ass. So she'd given up. He seemed to want to be the more submissive one in their relationship anyway, something she didn't want, and they had broken up because of it.

She really couldn't see John being submissive though. Not if he was am Alpha werewolf. Every werewolf male she'd slept with and had been dominant. They were by nature. Maybe she should have asked one of them to spank her. She smiled to herself and wondered if John would.

John opened the door a moment later in sweats and a t-shirt, freshly showered, and smelling good. His dark gaze traveled over her and he took a deep shuddering breath. He was definitely affected by her. "You look good. Really good." He stepped back and Maddie walked into his room.

He looked good too, though she was a bit disappointed that he wasn't wearing just a towel, and that his abs were covered. She preferred them bare, though she also didn't mind him in sweatpants. There was something about a guy in sweats that was just a turn on. Not that she needed help being turned on around him. It just happened every time she was in his presence.