Please... Love Me

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That happens on one Saturday morning..

Jungkook woke up earlier than Seokjin. He prepared breakfast and waited for his husband to come down. Not long after Seokjin coming down the stairs with his white shower robes on. Holding 2 towels on his hands

"Are  you ready?"
Seokjin asked him after giving him a soft kiss on the lips..

Jungkook bites his lips, he doesn't really know if he's ready.. although he really wanna do this, so he nods-

"Ahmm.. yeah-
I think?.."

Seokjin smiled at him before pulling him to a hug, then kissing him on the head
"Just follow what I will tell you and you'll be safe-
you'll be safe with me my baby Kookie"

My baby Kookie

Jungkook was thankful Seokjin was shoving him on his chest, because he wasn't able to see him blushing too much.

" I know.. Hyungie.."
He muttered, however, Seokjin heard his sweet response..

"Let's go?"

Jungkook just nods..

Seokjin held his hand tight, and walk him towards the back yard. Seokjin's athletic pool looks so inviting.

But as Jungkook coming nearer, the memories of him struggling on the water when he was younger -

His breath becomes heavier

Jungkook held tight on Seokjin's bathrobe-
"Baby, it's okay.."
Seokjin kissed his head again, that gesture was becoming Seokjin's habit without knowing that, at the same time it also becoming Jungkook's strength ..

They stop on the benches because Seokjin put the towels there, then taken off his Husband's robes and also taken out his own.

Seokjin held his hands and kissed it..
"What do you feel?"
"Afraid.."
That's true, Seokjin looks at him, his face was paled and his hands trembling, that's why Seokjin kissed it before asking him.

Seokjin looks at the water..
"Listen,. I may not remember it.. but I know once in our life I saved you-
Do you- happen to -
Remember that? Kookie? "

That made Jungkook looked at him -
Ofcourse he will never forget that.. maybe the same reason why he's afraid of waters-
Because he knows Seokjin wasn't there anymore to save him.

"I'm here now baby, I'm here again to save you.. again and again.. and again.."
Seokjin met his eyes and Jungkook saw the sincerity in it..

"But what if you.. divorce me?"

The memories of Seokjin talking to Taehyung on the phone renting free in his mind, Seokjin doesn't know it but will he?..

The older stared at him for a while before embracing him gently-

"I was so confused then.. maybe until now.. but you had given me what I always wanted Kookie.. I don't want to promise anything but whatever happens-
From now on, I will always be here for you"

Jungkook wanted to cry.. knowing Seokjin will be there for him was enough for the younger to feel secured
" Let's go.."

He just said,. And though his afraid.. Jin being there giving him enough courage to do so..
And Seokjin carefully pulling him towards the pool..

"Don't be afraid.. I'm here"
Until they reached the pool side

"H-hyung-ie.. I can't.. breathe"
They are now going down the pool, its the water wetting his toes, he hide his face on his husband's chest

"Trust me"
Seokjin gripped on his waist, leading them to go down the waters of the pool, Jungkook trying to calm himself..
Hyungie is here!

"Hyung is here, Kookie don't be afraid"

Seokjin watching his reaction on the water..

"See the water is good.. it won't hurt you"
Jungkook slowly loosing his grip on the older's body..
So Seokjin tried to let go of his hand -
"Hyung!"

But the moment Jungkook lose the skin contact, the trauma comes back like thunder and he was rattled and scared.
It's like someone pulling him down the waters-

Until one strong arms snatch him back to reality -

Seokjin!

Seokjin carried him in his hips to  pushed his body above the water..

"Calmdown Kookie! Look at me!"

The moment he heard that voice, Jungkook started to calmdown..

"I can't do it hyung!"
He's crying, Seokjin swim him to the side of the pool and he put the younger up to sit him in the pool side ..

"I thought you trust me?"

Seokjin's tone was obviously disappointed, Jungkook looked at him shaking his head

"No.. I- I mean-"
"It's okay .. let's do it some other time-"
Jungkook was quick in holding Jin's hand stopping him to get off the pool

"No Hyung!-
Can we - do it again?"
Seokjin stared at him deep

"Don't force your self Kookie"
He said voice low

Jungkook shakes his head.. last thing he wanted was Seokjin being disappointed and he needed to get out of that fear once and for all.

Determination pushed him, Jungkook slowly put his legs down the water and Seokjin held him..

Seokjin held him again and lead him to the water..

"I will slowly let go of your hands-
I want to hear our safe words baby.
Red and I'll hold you quick and we need to stop this. Green, you let me stay behind you. Yellow, I'll hold you and let you breathe for a while then we go on"

Jungkook nods.. and they do it again..