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tw: suicide
Evara cried in the mirror silently to herself.
She looked down at her mother's text message.
"I miss you love, I hope you're okay"
The room smelled of mildew and stale cigarettes, a stark contrast to the memories of her old life before everything had unraveled. Madeline was trying to find something for them to eat, leaving Evara alone with her thoughts in the bathroom.
The weight of her choices had begun to crush her spirit.
The tiny motel room, once a sanctuary, now felt like a prison.
She picked up the knife from the sink, its cold, metallic surface a cruel reminder of her desperation. Tears ran down her face as she traced the edge with her fingertips. The pain in her chest was unbearable, it was a void that seemed impossible to fill. She felt utterly alone like the world had crumbled beneath her feet, leaving her in a sea of hopelessness.
Her phone buzzed on the edge of the sink. The sudden noise made her flinch, and for a moment, the reality of what she was about to do paused. Her mother's name flashed on the screen, and a single text message appeared:
"I miss you love, I hope you're okay"
Evara's hands trembled as she stared at the screen, the words blurring through her tears.
Her mother's message was like a lifeline, pulling her back from her desperation.
She soon figured that it was a sign of realization that someone still cared, that someone was still holding out hope for her.
With a shaky breath, she placed the knife back in the sink and picked up the phone, dialing her mother's number. Each ring felt like an eternity, but when her mother's voice finally answered, it was a soothing.
"Mom?" Evara's voice was barely a whisper, choked with emotion.
"Evara? Are you okay?" Her mother's voice was filled with a mix of relief and concern.
"No, but- I miss you.." she smiled
"I miss you too, how are they treating you over there?" She asked, Evara chuckled wishing she could tell her everything including what just happened .
"I hate it..you were right" she answered
"If I had the money you know I'd fly you back up" her mother sighed
"No No- I just, I need to figure out things myself for now. I'm an adult now.. I missed you're voice" Evara smiled
"Do you have any money?" Her mom asked
"Uh yea, I do thanks" Evara lied, another tear fell from her eye as she answered her mother
"Evs, tell me the Truth.." her mom mumbled in a sad tone
"...If you could send me maybe like 20 dollars so I can get dinner tonight...I'd really-"
"Yea, of course" her mom sighed
"Can you tell me what's been going on?" She asked
"Uhm...I think I got a new job- there's a lot of competition when it comes to modeling now..especially now that I'm in a much bigger city. I met this guy he's really sweet, he's from England...And I'm still with my friend right now, things have been good for now...I just haven't found a good job until today, so I'm still looking over the papers" Evara confessed
"How long have you been talking to this guy?" She asks
"...a few days" she laughed
"Wow, you've been there for a month now and you've just started talking to this guy?" Her mom asks
"...I mean well yea- I kinda just met him everyone else is just, I dunno I just like him" she sighed sitting down on the toilet seat.
"What's he doing in France?" She asked
"He's here for work too apparently" Evara answered
"He models?" She asked
"No, he's in the film industry.." she answered
"Hmm..movie films right?" Her mom asked as Evara smiled placing her hand against her forehead
"No- yea of course, he's in regular movies apparently.. I haven't seen any tho so I can't say much" she laughed
"He's got a bunch of scripts around his place and he's got this nice car so I don't think he's a bad actor" she added, she heard her mom smile through the phone.
"Does this new job have better pay?" She asked
"Yea..but they're unfair with their cuts..they want. 60% of whatever I make" she sighed
"...do you need the job that bad?" Her mother sadly asked
"...yea kinda.." Evara sighed looking down.
"so what's the most you can make?" Her mom asked
"1500" she answered
"Okay..I think you should do it then Evs" her mother suggested
"Me too, but- I've gotta go now..I'll call you tomorrow tho..I love you" she spoke
"Yea..I love you too, just be safe out there" her mother sighed
"...Evs one more thing" her mom added
Evara sat in silence for a second
"Yea.." she answered
"You're a really beautiful woman now. Even you're still young you still have a long life ahead, you'll never need anything else to make you look or feel more intriguing" her mom said with a tone of sadness
"I know, thanks mom" she smiled folding her lips together
"Call me whenever you can later .. I love you" her mom added
"Love you too" She said, she kept the phone to her ear as she heard the phone hang up.
Evara was tempted to answer Callums text message so she did quickly before her phone died.
All he said was
"Hey, how's everything?" He sent it two days ago
Evara quickly typed back.
"Hey, everything is okay. I miss u I'm sorry I got back to you so late"
Just after she hit sent and watched it deliver her phone died.
She figured tomorrow morning she'd head over to his hotel in hopes he'd be leaving for work, He usually left early around 6am.
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