RUTHLESS TRUTH : the love between hatered

19. who is doing this?

EKANSH'S POV:

Why am I not able to live without her? The moments I spent with her, her smile, her touch, her smell, I am obsessed with her. I miss her, why God, whyy?? Why always me?? Apne pehle mera bachpan chinn Liya aur aab mera pyarr. Kyuu mahadev??

Meri jaan hai voh aap ese maat chiniye mujhse mera pyaar. Mai janta hu mai unke kabil nahi hu lekin apne aap ko unke kabil banane ke liye kuch bhi karunga, agar voh kahengi toh jaan bhi de denge. Lekin ek baar, unhe mere pass vapis lekar aaiye mahadev. I cried, i was praying to god, sitting on floor near closet, next to my bedroom, I know I'm coward, I am just being tough, rude, arrogant, cold, heartless in front of world even my family doesn't know my past, my real truth. I am hiding myself, my coward side from world.

But my arnya,she is goddess, she is just herself, she never mistreated anyone,everyone loves her,I miss her, I miss her melodious voice, a sharp but slow voice made me out of my thoughts and back to this real and brutal world,"ekansh beta..." it was maa saa.

I instantly wiped off my tears and without looking at her, I ran inside bathroom. I stood against the door holding the knob of door, my tears were streaming down they were not stopping they are so stubborn they didn't listen to my mind. They are just flowing on.

I washed my face with ice cold water, I looked at myself, I hate myself. I puched the mirror breaking it into pieces, suddenly I heard maa Saa's concerned voice from outside, knocking the door continuesly and shouting,"kya hua ekansh? Kya kar rahe ho, bahar aao mujhe baat karni hai..ekansh betaa??"

I plastered a fake smile on my face and wiped of my face and take a long deep breath, calmed myself down and opened the door, maa sa, baba saa, amol, uncle and aunty was looking at me with horror expressions as they all saw a ghost. I looked at them and looked at ground and coughed a little to correct my voice and said in my usual rude and cold tone,"kya hua maa saa?"

She held my wrist and took me towards balcony, made me sit on the couch and sat beside me holding my hand. I don't know what is she trying to do? I just don't have to cry inffont of her, I know maa saa knows about arnya's condition even the whole family knows about her, but I don't have guts to talk about her now.

I looked all of them in confusion suddenly baba saa said,"engagement ki date fix kar di hai." What??what about my arnya.. she.. she wanted his brother's wedding so eagerly, what if she got to know that they did engagement without her, she will got hurt. No will not let this happen. I got up from the couch and held amol's hand and left the room with him.

We were standing in garden, outside the house, I looked at amol and shouted angrily, "Pagal ho gaye ho tum? Tumhari behen hospital mein behosh hai,aur tumhe engagement karni hai?" He looked at me with guilt in his eyes and a tear escaped his eyes. Why is he crying did something happened to my arnya?

I held him with his shoulders and tightening my grip I said scaredly,"arnya..arnya thik hai na??" He looked down, he didn't replied, what the fuck? What happened to arnya? She was fine right? A tear escaped my eyes and my legs got weak my grip losen, "Doctors ne kaha voh medicines respond nahi kar rahi hai." He said.

What??she is brave, she is my arnya,she can't leave me like this not in this brutal world, she won't let me suffer here alone. I know she is just joking with all of us. She will come back to me. I looked at amol and said,"that's rubbish, She is strong, doctors must have misunderstood something, why the hell she will not respond?"

It's enough now, I don't want anything else, I want her to get up now, I want her in front of me now. I can't tolerate this mischief, I can't tolerate this joke anymore. I want to see her now. I will tell her that i love her, she can't do this to me. I left amols shoulders with jerk and ran inside the house.