Ruthless ; B•E

Thirteen

Billie carried the sleeping girl out of the library and placed her on the soft white sheets of the bed.
   That's the third time in only a week Aliza had fallen asleep in the library.
   Aliza had woken up only to find herself in bed with Billie sitting on the edge.
   "Go back to sleep." Billie said with a frustrated tone.
   Aliza laid back down and tried to fall asleep but it just didn't happen.
  "Are you alright?" Aliza whispered while turning to face Billie.
   "I said go back to sleep Aliza! What don't you get!" Billie shouted while shooting up from where she was sitting.
   Aliza jumped and her heart dropped into her stomach.
   Billie got up and went to sleep on the couch which left Aliza up, crying her eyes out. Trying to figure out what she did so wrong.
    And she did it. She went into the bathroom and stomped on a razor until it broke.
   And then she drug it across the skin on her wrist, allowing the blood to pool up in the sink.
   Yeah. It burned. But it felt good, like she was finally alive all over again.   
    It brought a sense of peace and relief to her to know that she still bleeds.
  In the morning which was only two hours away Billie came up to get a shower when she found that the door was locked.
   She pounded on the bathroom door, scaring Aliza awake.
    Her blood had dried on her skin, and she was dizzy and lightheaded. She started vomiting instantly.
   "Open the door Aliza." Billie said as she pounded on the door harder.
   Aliza quickly flushed the toilet and turned on the sink, allowing it to flush away the blood that had pooled up inside.
  Then she opened the door and pushed right past Billie.
  
Lately billie has been cold and distant. And by lately, I mean every single day this for the last two weeks.
    But today she sat down next to Aliza during dinner.
  "You look pretty. What made you do your makeup?" Billie asked with a smile while Aliza picked at her food.
    "Are we going to act like you haven't been screaming at me and treating me like Alexander does?" Aliza asked while scooting out from the table and standing up.
   "I have my own problems Aliza and you don't need to be balls deep in my shit."
   "Sometimes I wish that bullet would've hit me." Aliza stormed off, leaving Billie at the dining table.
    Billie took a deep, long breath and followed Aliza up the stairs.
   She pushed the door open and walked toward Aliza calmly.
    "Lift up your sleeves now." Billie growled while reaching out to Aliza.
  "No! Stop! Leave me alone." Aliza was on the verge of tears.
   Her hands started shaking and her breathing was unsteady and Billie sat down next to her.
   "After this panic attack of yours is done we seriously need to talk." She serenely stated, her voice sounding soft and meaningful.
    After about thirty minutes later Aliza had stopped crying.
   But she wouldn't talk.
She completely shut down and lost all interest in speaking to Billie.
    Aliza meticulously fidgeted with the hair tie around her wrist while Billie spoke lightly.
"I'll tell you why I've been being so mean when I'm ready but for now I need to see your wrists and I need you to speak." Billie said while opening her hand, expecting Aliza to place her own hand into Billie's grip.
   But instead Aliza curled up in a ball and cried on Billie's lap.
   Billie now felt shitty.
No matter what, Aliza knew that she was the biggest burden to everyone, not even her own brothers want her around anymore.
     Everything was caving down on Aliza.
"You're alright. Calm down." Billie cooed while rubbing her back tenderly.
    "I'm not alright." The brunette sniffled while tracing shapes on Billie's thigh.
    "You are. I promise. Cry as much as you need to Minnie. We can talk about it later today." Billie's soft words spoke so calmly.
Aliza took a while to cry.
She tried her best to stop crying but it just never happened.
Billie shifted then got up without saying a single word, leaving Aliza in bed.
And then she heard Billie's car leave. It was easy to recognize the sound of her car.
An hour passed.
Two hours passed.
By then Aliza had completely stopped crying.
But then Billie came back.
   She rushed inside and turned the light on.
  "Hey. Get changed into something your wouldn't be cold in." Billie said while opening the closet.
   She threw a pair of sweatpants of her own at Aliza along with an all black hoodie that was many sizes too big.
    By now, the sun had went down already which meant it was cooler outside so whatever Billie was planning, they'd be outside for a while.
     After Aliza hesitantly got dressed she followed Billie downstairs without saying a single word.
   But she finally did speak when they got in the car.
"Where are we going?" Aliza asked with a gentle tone of voice.
Billie glanced at her wide brown eyes and gave a soft smile.
"You'll see. Hush now." Billie turned up the music and finally began driving to the secret destination.
It wasn't a far or a long drive. It was quite enjoyable, really.
But when the arrived Billie turned to Aliza with a sly smile.
"Do you trust me?" Billie asked while holding out a blindfold.
Aliza took a deep, concerning breath and gave a slight nod, afraid of the outcome she swallowed hard.
After Billie tied the blindfold on Aliza she got out of the car and helped Aliza out.
They began walking... up a hill?
Weird.
But as soon as they stopped walking Billie let go of her and tidied up the surprise.
And then she walked behind Aliza and removed the blindfold.
"Surprise." Billie quietly said with a smile tugging at the corner of her lips.
Aliza looked around.
She captured everything around her and looked at Billie with wide eyes.
Aliza was stunned, speechless even.
Who would've thought Billie would be the picnic behind the Hollywood sign type of girl.
"Cmon. Come sit." Billie grabbed Aliza by her hand and guided her to the soft quilt that sat on the ground.
"I was in a rush and stopped to get Chinese takeout. I hope you like it." Billie said with a very awkward smile.
"I do... Billie? Why did you do all of this?" Aliza asked while wrapping herself with her own arms in a freezing cold manner.
"I don't know, you needed away. A change of scenery. Finneas always told me a change of scenery can change a person and how they feel." She spoke.
Aliza took a deep breath and laid her head on Billie's shoulder.
Billie took the initiative and grabbed Aliza's hands, warming them up in her own.
Billie wrapped Aliza in a spare blanket and reached over, pulling out her laptop.
"Movie?" Billie asked while handing Aliza her food.
   Aliza nodded and then began eating and watching the movie.
   Aliza was now laying on Billie's entire body, her head buried in her neck, completely fast asleep.
     And when the movie was over Billie laid there, allowing Aliza to sleep for a little longer before she had to carry her to the car.
   After she buckled Aliza's seatbelt and reclined the seat she went back to the picnic area and packed everything back into the trunk before making her way home finally.
    Aliza was still asleep, she could be such a heavy sleeper at times.
    Once Billie had arrived at home she took Aliza inside and placed her in bed.
At this time Aliza was now awake.
She turned to Billie and gave her a soft smile.
"Thanks for the picnic. It was really fun." Her voice was sleepy and raspy. It was cute.
"You're welcome Minnie. Go on to sleep now."