legacy

angel of my dreams

2014

"i don't know mercy. i just feel like i don't belong here." i said to my red-headed friend as we scanned the large room full of rings. today's the day. my first day working my dream job here in the wwe. this has been my dream for years but now that i'm here...i can't even see myself in these rings.

"i'm glad i'm not the only one completely shitting myself." mercedes said, earning a giggle from both of us. i've always wanted this. i've fought tooth and nail for this. mercedes and i have been all over the indies together chasing these dreams...we can't chicken out now, right?

i heard a coach call all of us over to a room where he told us who we would be teamed up with for the day. i stared down at my shoes as i heard names being called left and right. "martinez! you're with...devitt!" i heard a coach yell from the other side of the room. i stepped forward and saw another person step forward from down the line.

when i looked to my right, i was met with the most gorgeous man i've ever seen. like, truly take my breath away gorgeous. how am i supposed to beat this guy up? he walked over to me and stuck his hand out to shake. "i'm fergal. nice to meet you." he said with a glowing smile. all i could focus on was his bright blue eyes. god, i could
pounce on him.

"uh, pamela. nice to meet you." i said as i shook his hand. i followed him over to a ring and when we got to the ring apron, fergal sat on the ropes and held them open for me. "well, thank you." i said with a sly smile as i entered the ring. "anything for the prettiest girl here." fergal said with his thick accent. god, this man is going to ruin me.

2016

"home sweet home." i said as i unlocked the door to the empty apartment. "anywhere is home with you." fergal said as he shut the door behind us and wrapped his arms around my shoulders. we finally were able to save up enough money to buy a nice apartment for the two of us. what a way to celebrate our two year anniversary.

"can you believe we've been together for two years?" i asked him as i turned around in his arms so i could look at him. fergal was recently called up to the main roster and even thought i hate his new schedule of being gone all the time, i know it makes him happier than ever. and i know i'll get there one day as well.

"not at all. i remember when i first laid eyes on you. you looked scared shitless." fergal laughed as i playfully hit his chest. "i was scared! not all of us can have ten years of wrestling experience, grandpa." i said as fergal scoffed.

"well you sure wrestled like you did. i remember when we locked up...i couldn't stop thinking about how i wish i had you at my school first." fergal said as i grinned. "maybe in another life." i said before placing a kiss to his lips.

current day

i can't open my eyes. i can't open my eyes and see where the shots landed. so here i am, curled up in a ball on the concrete, unable to think or breathe or open my eyes. cause if i open my eyes...i'm going to see that the love of my life was taken from me.

"pam! are you okay? were you hit?" i heard a voice ask as they put their hands on my side. i know that voice. i'd know that voice anywhere. "fergal?" i asked as i opened my eyes. "i'm right here baby." fergal said as i looked up at him. i engulfed him into a hug as my hands continued to shake.

"s-so if you're okay and i'm okay..." i said as i pulled back and looked at him in confusion. that's when i looked beside me and saw colby's bloody body sitting next to me. "holy fuck." i said as i heard footsteps running towards us. "are you guys okay? we wanted to make sure we could get a good hit on him." one of our security guards asked as they ran to our sides.

he's dead. he's fucking dead. they got him. and all i can do is stare at his body. i don't know why seeing colby's body is such a shock to my system. i should be happy that he's no longer a threat to our family. but all i can do is feel guilt.

how do we go on knowing we killed someone we worked with? how does fergal go back to work? how do we face becky? sure, she hated him as much as we did, but i know there was still a part of her that was in love with him. and now we're the reason he's dead.

"are you sure you're okay?" fergal asked as he helped me to my feet and looked around my body for any blood. "i-i'm fine. i think. physically i am." i said as i wrapped my arms around fergal and buried my head into his chest.

the next few hours felt like a blur. we had to wait for the police to arrive and question us. with having our security guards as witnesses, they ruled out any foul play on our end and let us go. watching them put colby's body in a body bag was the worst of it.

when i got into link and i's final fight...i didn't have to see his lifeless body. fergal had his police friends cover everything. but this...this was traumatizing. no one ever thinks they'd see a dead body.

once fergal and i arrived home, i changed out of my blood-soaked clothes and crawled into bed. fergal called becky and made sure it would be okay if the kids spend the night with her. he knew i wasn't in any condition to see them. "how are you feeling?" fergal asked as he walked into the bedroom.

"i don't know. a part of me is thankful he's gone forever. another part of me still had a bit of love for him. i wouldn't say i was in love with him but i loved him for months. that doesn't just go away." i said as i took a shaky breath. i truly don't know how to feel. it's all so confusing.

"i get it. i felt the same way when vero passed. a part of you will always have some sort of love for him. i'd never punish you for that." fergal said before placing a kiss to the top of my head. god, i truly hit the jackpot with him.

"how are we supposed to face the kids tomorrow?" i asked fergal as he crawled into bed next to me. he sighed as i rested my head on his chest. "we get through it one day at a time. i'm here for you. i just don't want you stressing yourself out too much." fergal said as he ran his hand over my bump.

he's right. i shouldn't be letting this stress me out. and for some reason ive always let colby take over my emotions. but he's not here to do that anymore. out of sight, out of mind...right?