Can We Be Fixed?

Chapter 51: Shock

Talia's POV:

Whatever Elijah gave me must of worn off because I woke up

Luca was next to me and I was leaning against his shoulder 

 He gave me a small smile as I got up

"I- ... uh.. where is Lorenzo" I whisper looking everywhere frantically 

"Everyone's fine don't worry he has just gone to sort some things out, are you okay, do you want me to get you anything"

I nod, I wanted a lot of things, to no be a murder, and for Sadie and Angelo to be alive 

I think I started crying because Luca hugged me 

"Shh its okay, its not your fault Talia" He whispers softly trying to reassure me 

"You don't get it, you didn't kill him" I mutter 

"Talia... you can't blame yourself, he gave you no choice it was either you or him" His face falls 

"No it was my fault, and now Angelo and Sadie are dead" I feel myself fall onto the ground as I sob 

"Talia..." 

I can't even hear what he is saying over my sobs 

"He's dead, and Macey.... she was only fourteen and Sadie" I hug my knees to my chest as tears roll down my face

I look at my hands and I can still see the remains of Daniel, Angelo, Sadie and Macey mixed together in a sick kind of way

"No no no" I gasp for air as my chest seems to tighten and everything starts to blur

"Fuck what am I supposed to do, I don't know how to stop panic attacks" Luca stresses beside me

Someone calls out my name but I am already gone, darkness consuming me for a second time

Only I hope I don't come back this time.

Xander's POV:

Seeing your sister collapsed on the floor is not exactly what you plan to see when you walk out of a hospital room where your cousin is slowly dying

Me and my brother Xavier stare at Luca who is panicking beside her 

"Calm down" I mutter to my oldest cousin 

"Your going to have a panic attack as well if you don't" Xavier smirks as I help him pick up Talia

"She's okay right?" 

"Yes she is fine Luca, she's just shocked that's all, she'll be okay" 

Deep down did I believe she was okay.. no not really but we all needed to be strong for her

Lorenzo thinks she is going to be okay and I believe him, but she is not cut out for this kind of life, If I kill someone it doesn't affect me at all but this is just going to ruin her

I can already tell, the look on her face when Lorenzo brought her from downstairs there was this expression I just can't explain, there was horror, fear, disgust but something really stood out

Guilt.

You can't let that emotion consume you when you run a mafia or even just work for one, it will destroy you inside out even before your enemies even get to you

That is exactly what happened to our dad, and where did that get him.. six feet under, now rotting in the ground

Gently I pull my sister up onto a chair and push her hair out of her face, there was a small gash I hadn't seen before on the side of her head, hidden by all of her hair