To Keep Her Safe

CHAPTER FOURTY NINE

" There is something you should know ". Those words left Freen's mouth, Becca sighed and kept her cup of tea on the table, she nodded, she didn't know what was the matter but it genuinely appeared to be serious.

" I have something to say as well, Freen ". Becca closed her eyes tightly as she said this, she couldn't hide the truth from Freen any longer, Freen deserved to know. " You go ahead first, Becca, please ". Freen vulnerably mumbled, she hoped that Becca would understand her when she admits the truth but she required more time to structure her statement, she didn't want her to think that she didn't consider her first.

" Freen.... I... ". Becca stuttered, her eyes became clouded with tears that threatened to fall from her eyes, Freen sensed that Becca required comfort, Freen got up from her chair and settled to one close to Becca, she held her hand in her own as she waited for Becca to say what she wanted to say.

" Freen, I am so sorry but.... I won't be able to get pregnant ". Becca admitted the truth, Freen took a sharp breath in, her mouth formed a small smile yet the sadness was clear from her expression. " Is it permanently or due to a health reason, Becca ? ". Freen asked, she grabbed Becca's hands tightly, her heart won't be able to take the news, she wanted to father a child with Becca but she would accept what the reality is.

" No, I am healthy and my womb is able to carry a child but I took a contraceptive herb last night, before you even came into my room, Irin gave me the herb ". Becca cried into her hands, Freen got confused as to why Becca took the contraceptive herb, she held Becca close to her chest and allowed her lover to cry silently, she wouldn't pry into the issue if Becca is not willing to tell her the whole story.

" I didn't want to.... But Irin was worried, thinking that after the wedding Saint might try to force himself on me as it was our first night together after marriage ". Becca weeped silently, Freen tightened her arms around Becca's fragile figure as her inner self was fueled with rage and instinct to protect Becca. " I told her that Saint will never do it, he respected me but Irin was persistent, I knew that if Saint made the move and tried to dominate me, I wouldn't be able to push him away, he is stronger than me and I didn't want a child if it wasn't yours so Irin convinced me to take the herb ". Becca stated, Freen sighed and understood the reason behind Becca's decision to take the herb, even if it ached Freen that Becca felt unsafe enough to take the herb, she loathed Saint with every fiber in her body.

" I wanted to tell you last night but when we were having sex, it skipped my mind, I was just so happy being with you and enjoying your embrace ". Becca sniffed as her crying died a little, Freen smiled and wiped Becca's cheeks and kissed her pouted lips. " Becca... ". Freen tried to console her lover, Becca sighed as she wasn't able to fight the guilt inside her chest.

" I had no intention of hiding this from you, I had no intention of lying, Freen. I do want a family with you but... I am so sorry ". Becca stated, she bit her lips as she didn't want to cry anymore, Freen smiled and relaxed, Becca just agreeing to carry her child was enough for her. " You did what you had to do to protect yourself, I am sorry you felt the need to take the herb and I am sorry I wasn't back to save you from everything but I am not angry Becca, not even in the slightest ". Freen stated and kissed her lover's forehead, Becca sniffed and nodded.

" Had Saint done anything before which made Irin suspect that ? ". Freen asked as she embraced Becca in a tight hug, she was worried that Saint might have actually hurt her, the king had already warned Freen that Saint wasn't the one whom he appeared to be. " At the engagement ceremony, he tried to kiss me, I continuously said that I wasn't comfortable with showing affection in public so he let it go but after the wedding, I wouldn't have been able to get away with it ". Becca weakly mumbled, Freen sighed, it was difficult to control her anger, she wanted to kill Saint with her bare hands, wanted to behead him and feed him to the dogs.