Cynthia Romani

Chapter 46

I feel weird, like I'm sleeping but I feel people touching me, I'm scared and all I want is Aleksandr. I'm in complete darkness and I want to scream, I want to open my eyes but I can't.

I suddenly feel warm, really warm. I don't know what's happening but I suddenly see myself, I'm on the operating table. Flatlining. I can't help but cry at the sight of me laying there lifeless.

I'm finally dead.

I feel a deep sense of sadness overcome me and I watch as she continues to pump my chest. I decided I can't watch anymore so I walk out.

I hear laughter and head towards it the more I walk the more lighter I feel. I walk towards the laughter and smile when I see them. My mother and Olivia. They're laughing but stop when they see me. I start crying when my mother looks at me with tears in her eyes.

"Mamma." I try to run up to them but I don't move. "Why can't I go with you guys. I miss you so much." My mom shakes her head and walks over to me. She's crying, she looks like her old self before the cancer overtook her.

"Don't do this Cynthia it's not your time Cara." I don't understand. "You have to go back." Olivia says. "No please I want to stay with you. Please Olivia, mom I don't want to leave." They shake their heads. "I don't understand mamma why won't you let me be with you!" I begin crying.

"Come back Cynthia please!" I hear someone crying and my mom kisses my forehead. "I love you Cara, but it's not your time. You have people waiting on you.." Olivia's hugs me "we been watching over you Cynthia. We're so proud of you." Mom hugs me, "your father needs you Cara Mia. Tell him I love him " She whispers and then I feel like I'm falling.

Im in complete darkness. There's voices but I cant hear who they are. Someone touches my hand and then it's gone.

I hear him. The voice I adore so much, he's talking to me. I try to open my eyes and fail. "I love you, please come back to me." I try to wake up but nothing works.

without her I am nothing. I'm currently in her room watching the rise and fall of her chest, I stare at the heart machine that lets me know she's with me. She's okay.

"I miss hearing your voice. And the fact that I can't see those mischievous eyes of yours. A part of me feels empty and I don't know how I used to survive with out you, Cynthia." I look down at the flowers in my hands and wipe the tears that threaten to fall. I'm sick of crying it's done nothing but give me a headache.

I look at my girlfriend laying down, sleeping. I know how much we love to sleep but this time I hate it. I need her to wake up. She scared the fuck out of me when she flat lined, but Natalia brought her back to me. I'm so thankful for her.

Now it's only a matter of time wether Cynthia chooses to wake up. I placed the flowers in her bedside. "Listen up darling, if you don't wake up right now, I'm breaking up with you" I looked at her and make sure her heart monitor is okay. She looks paler than usual.

I feel like the room is closing in on me I need out. I stand up and head towards the door but stop when I hear her. "If you..break up with me, I'm setting your house on fire. Bitch" I turn around and see my beautiful girl with a small smile.

"I rather burn to death than ever break up with you darling." I couldn't hold my tears back. I was instantly at her side. She's awake, she's fine. "Don't ever, and I mean ever jump in front of bullet for me Cynthia. If one of us goes first it's me. Because I can't live in a world where you're not in it sweetheart. I won't have it."

I gave her some water and she happily drank it. "No" she said. No? What does she mean by no?

"I will jump in front of bullet for you a thousand times Aleksandr. You don't get to make that choice for me. Amore call the doctor I'm in pain." She's stubborn as hell, however I'll let this conversation slide since she's in pain. Right now I need to make sure she's fine.

I went out the hallway and see ms. Morecelli sitting on a chair, her neck bent in an awkward position as she's sleeping. I feel like an ass, I'm the one who's been making her stay here everyday. "Natalia?" I shake her lightly to which she instantly wakes up, she's a light sleeper I guess it comes with her job. "What's wrong mijo? Is Cynthia okay?"

Mijo that word means so much to me. When she first called me that I searched it up and learned it meant son. It's my favorite word now. "She woke up but said she's in pain." She smiled and I couldn't hold my self from giving her a hug. "Thank you, for everything. I'm sorry I've kept you here. But you're the best doctor I know."

She hugged me back telling me she'll always be there for me, I choose to believe her. When we made it to Cynthia's room, she checked her charts and gave her some pain medication. Cynthia was fine, she can go home in two days and has to be on bed rest. "After you're recovered, we're burning the bitch down." I told her while kissing her forehead.

"I can't wait!" There it is those mischievous eyes of hers that I love. I will make Vanessa pay for almost taking the one thing I hold dearly.

Her dad is in the room giving her a whole lecture and how's she's grounded. I nod and agree with him. Cynthia rolls her eyes and smiles at us.

"I died." She whispers and I go still. "Yess honey you did, twice actually." Her dad squeezes her hand and she's nods while wiping her tears.

"I know I saw myself dead. Dad don't freak out or call me crazy. But i saw her, mom was there. She told me to come back, and Olivia was with her, it was pretty where they were and I wanted to stay but they wouldn't let me."

My mouth is on the fucking floor. So heaven does exist? "Was she okay?" Cynthia nods and tells us what she saw, she wiped her tears but smiled, "they're okay, they're with us all the time she told me." Her dad nods and laughs as he tearfully kisses Cynthia's forehead.

"Don't ever do this again Cynthia"

"I agree." She rolls her eyes at me. The audacity of this girl.

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Author note: I love this song so much. Noah khan 💌

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