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FOURTEEN ✮scared to be lonely
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LAINEY CARTER HAD NEVER FELT THIS BROKEN.
she used to be on top of the world, but now she was rock bottom. her body felt so weak. her mind was so fragile. she never used to think someone would put their hands on her body, just because she was famous- no she never would've even thought someone would do something so evil. she had herself to blame, it wasn't anyone's fault but hers. she's the one who wore what she wore, she's the one who would purposely make herself seem like a whore.
lainey shut her eyes, her hands clenched in fists. she needed to get over it. she needed to act like everything was fine. she was leaving with kate soon, and everything would be in the past. but her mind kept going back to tyler- he was the only person keeping her sane. lainey was at her rock bottom years ago, and tyler came into her life. he was the one who made her not want to sit in a bathtub and drink for hours on end.
boone, he was practically like her older brother. they had their arguments, they had their laughs. he was the one who welcomed her very quickly, not caring that his seat in the car was being taken. he was the number one shipper of tyler and lainey, always nudging tyler towards lainey, or always saying some stupid comment. boone looked out for lainey, even when she didn't need someone to look out for her. they were chaotic together, and lainey couldn't leave him.
she couldn't leave lily and dani, the other girls in the group. lily was her ride or die, even though they barely talked. they always had the brains of the group, sometimes lily had to mother lainey, but she didn't mind. dani wasn't afraid to push a man around when he was getting to close to the girl.
and dexter. dexter was like her father she never had. he would clean her cuts from the debris of the tornado. he would scold her whenever she did something so ridiculous that tyler wouldn't even do. he always rubbed the top of her head like a dad would.
lainey couldn't leave them behind. she just couldn't bring herself to say goodbye to her only family she had the past few years. her heart stung each time she thought about it. lainey just needed time, she's been through so much the past few days, she could barely breath. she needed to find a way to get colin in jail, because if he did it to her, he was doing it to everyone else. lainey hated men who thought they were superior and touched woman- she always despised it.
before tyler, there was ryan. ryan was lainey's first boyfriend. he was perfect at first, but when he fell apart, he fell apart. lainey was thankful she got out of the relationship because the next girl he had, he abused for months. she remembered the day he was arrested, and she's never been happier. men like colin and ryan deserved nothing.
lainey took a breath, she needed to breathe. her heart and mind weren't going the same speed. she was thankful colin only kissed her neck, she could eventually get over that. she's been touched by grown men before, but nothing what colin did. she was never trapped. she was never vulnerable. lainey had tyler and boone when the men touched her, and lets just say, the men came out with bloody noses or a bruised eye. but this time, she had no one. she had herself. if she didn't fight him off, she could still be with him- he could've raped her.
