𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙇𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙨 - Lando Norris (LN4) [Book 2]

𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕤𝕚𝕩𝕥𝕖𝕖𝕟

DECEMBER 2023

With all my Christmas shopping stored in bags, I make my way back to mine and Lando's apartment. I tried to distract Liana a little bit, things with her and Charles are currently cold as ice - and that's not just because it's winter. We did our Christmas shopping together, I found presents for almost everyone. The last one missing is the one for Lando, but I have already ordered that online.

After lunch, Liana wanted to go back home and crawl back into bed... after I pulled her out of it this morning, I showed a bit of sympathy and let her go back home. But only after she promised me to call if she needs me.

Back in our building I pull my keys out of my bag and unlock our door. I'm surprised when it opens right away.

"Hey babe, I'm back!" I shout, but I don't get an answer back. Weird. Maybe Lando is out for a run and he just forgot to lock the door.

I drop my shopping bags in the office, get a bottle of water from the kitchen before I head into the living room where I find Lando sitting on the couch staring at something in his hand.

"Hey, didn't you hear me?" I ask while I walk towards him to place a kiss on his forehead. That's when I spot the familiar, haunting box in his hand.

Shit.

"Lando?" He doesn't even look at me. He just stares at the pink pregnancy test box.

"Are you pregnant?" he whispers.

I shudder at the sound of his cold voice.

"Erm, no." I croak.

"Okay, so who is pregnant then?" Finally he looks at me, I wince when I see the look on his face. I can't exactly place if it's anger, if it's pain or both but I have never seen that look on his face and I immediately feel bad.

"No one is pregnant, babe." I try to take his hand to comfort him but he just shakes his head and moves to the other side of the sofa, crossing his arms across his chest, staring at me.

"Whose box is it then, Rae?"

"It's Liana's!" I whisper, I feel bad for lying, but I'm so afraid to tell him the truth.

"Don't fucking lie to me, please! If this test would have been Liana's you would have told me straight away. So just be honest for fuck sake."

He knows me too well and it pisses me off. Yes, it's my fault that he found out, because I forgot to throw the box away. In my mind, I give myself the biggest slap on the forehead. Jesus Christ, Rae. How can you be so stupid?

"So it's yours?" he jumps to conclusion from my silence.

I slowly nod. There is no need to deny it anymore and lying would make this situation even worse.

I can see his shoulders slump down.

"When did it happen?" He can't even look me in the eyes and I can feel my eyes starting to burn from the tears trying to make their way out.

"When you were gone before Vegas."

"Why didn't you tell me?" His eyes are now back on me and he looks at me prompting.

"I didn't think it was important."

"Excuse me? Are you serious? Rae, we have been dating for 2 and a half years, we live together, you're literally my whole future and you don't think telling me that you thought you might have been pregnant is important? That's the biggest bullshit I have ever heard." Lando has now started pacing up and down the living room, his hands going nervously through his hair.

"I didn't think it was important because the test was NEGATIVE, Lando. Why make a big deal out of it when there is nothing to worry about?"

"ARE YOU BEING SERIOUS?" his voice is filled with anger and he looks at me in disbelief. "What would you have done if the test was positive? Not tell me either because 'it's not important'?" his voice is dripping with sarcasm.

"That's ridiculous and you know that." Tears are streaming down my face, there is no point trying to wipe them away because they keep coming. Not knowing what to say, I turn my back to leave the room.

"Answer my question please! Would you have told me if it was positive or swept under the rug as well?"

My shoulders come up to my ears because I had no answer to this.

"I am not ready to be a mum," I turn back to face him.

"What?"

"I said 'I am not ready to be a mum'. I freaked out Lando for fuck sake, I don't want to think about children at all. I didn't want to have this conversation with you so I kept it hidden. We are still so young, I wouldn't want you to miss out on your baby's life because of all the traveling you do for work, and I don't want to follow you around like a little mummy puppet who doesn't have her own life just because of a baby."

His brows furrow, "I thought you liked traveling with me?"

Now it's my turn to throw my hands up in frustration. "I do but that's not the point. I am not going to drag a baby around the world with me just because it's dad needs to be in a different country every week. That's not fair to either me, you or a baby."

"You knew about my job when we started dating and I have never heard you complain about traveling before so don't be silly."

"Don't even go there, Lando. Of course I like traveling with you, I knew what your job when we started getting serious but when that happened the topic about babies was never on the table. I am not ready to be a mother, the test was negative and that's it. We are young, why hurry anything? My god, it's not even a big deal! I felt sick, I was late on my period, I thought there could be a possibility of pregnancy but turns out there wasn't. Get over it Lando. Please."

I take a deep breath, exhausted from the conversation, all I want to do is get into bed,

"You are being selfish right now. I get it, you are not ready to be a mum but you should fucking talk to me. I play a part in this relationship as well, a little heads up and a quick talk about it would have been nice to say the least. We could have talked about this together and I wouldn't have found out about it almost two months later all because you forgot to throw the fucking box away." His voice is a lot quieter now. I take a quick look at him and see he has tears running down his face, all the anger is gone, his eyes now filled with sadness.

"I am done with this conversation, I am going to bed."

Without waiting for his answer I turn around and hurry to the bedroom, grabbing my blanket and my pillow.

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I hide under my blanket on the bed in the guest bedroom. I think about how many tears I have left in my eyes. I have been crying for the last hour, it doesn't feel like there will be an end to it anytime soon.

Shortly after I closed the door of the guest room behind me, I heard Lando passing my door and closing the door to our bedroom shortly after.

Since then I have been lying here, crying. I checked my phone a few times for any messages from Liana, but there was nothing. I contemplated if I should text her but quickly decided against it. I can't bother her with my problems while she is going through a tough time herself right now. So now I'm staring at the ceiling, with my blanket pulled up to my nose, crying.

This was the biggest fight we ever had... I feel like tonight will change a lot.