can i sleep forever

fifteen

being in a long distance relationship that is but isn't long distance isn't easy.im seeing couples everyday they look so cute and happy. they get to see each other at school hang out. and like i don't wanna be that person to hate on couples.

but i do wish i was able to see him more. i told my parents i didn't wanna go to the school. well i don't have a choice. i have to go to the school because it's in my school district and it's not like i could switch. but if i had the option to i probably would.

don't get me wrong i like all of my friends that i have at this school. it just i don't feel anything in classes that i have some of my old friends are in them. i don't like seeing those people. when i was those people, they were my friends and they didn't care about me.

they could have quite let we care less i honestly don't even know why they were friends with me. from things that they did it was obvious they didn't want to hang out with me. it seems to be almost everyone has gotten tired and annoyed with me once they really got to know me.

it was like I was actually being myself and they didn't like that. they didn't like me for me they liked me that i pretended to be with them. but when i moved to schools last year i found people i could be me with. like actually be me and not be judged for it for the things that i like.

me and one of my old best friends have seen each other around campus.and she's giving me a look like if she doesn't know me. like if i was some random person like if we were never friends. and i get not everyone is gonna stay friends especially when you move schools and don't talk to them. but she would message me and we would talk like if nothing happened. but in person it was like a completely different story.

i'm just glad i'm not friends with her anymore because she wasn't someone i needed to be around. if I'm being quite honest some of the things that i had started doing that probably weren't for the best. start it because of her i won't get into detail about that but it happened.