can i sleep forever

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i know i shouldn't be with people that are toxic. and that are more red than russia but i can't help it. the only relationship that i've been around and seen is my parents. you could say they don't like each other and will randomly start yelling at one another. or my mother will just stop talking to my father. sometimes she does that to me.

she also likes telling me about all the things that my father has done. from before i was born all the way to now. i don't think any of that i need it to know but she thought i did. i once told her i would like to see how staying with my father would be like. and well you can say i got screamed at.and at the same time she wonders why i don't tell her anything.

i'm not saying my father is the best he has done some fucked up shit also. like the things he has been doing before i was born all the way to now. like cheating on my mother or telling her to get rid of the kid she was pregnant with. if she didn't listen to him that kid would be 19 by now. so no neither one of them are the best.

but from this relationship they have had put something in my head. that a toxic relationship like the ones i was in weren't bad. because it didn't have things like what i've seen. so it couldn't have been toxic one bit. but i've been learning that if someone is doing something that is making you uncomfortable and that you have told them. and they continue to do it maybe you should drop them.