can i sleep forever

thirteen

i have a this voice in my head telling me not to message people or reach out to anyone because im annoying them. all i really wanna do right now is to message him but that voice is telling me not to. he's going to thing im being annoying and clingy and that i need to talk to him all the time. and the thing is i know none of it is true but i can't help it. ive stopped myself from sending people things because i feel like ive been messaging them bit much and i don't what them to think im being annoying.

i can't tell you just how many times ive opened instagram and thought about sending a message but end up not doing it. i just wanna message them us yapping about anything those are always my favorite times. just talking to one of my friends about the most random things its just something about it.

and when i say friends i mean that one person the person i could talk to all the time. the person i could just listen to talk about something they like or honestly anything. the one i could never get tired talking or listening to. whenever i get a notification from them my day is better and i get this smile on my face.