can i sleep forever

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!SUICIDE THOUGHTS!

is it bad to say i've thought of just ending it all. i've wrote notes for my parents because i was thinking of doing it. if i being honest i started writing some for other people. i had even thought of the things that i own and some of the things i would give people.

i know it isn't true but in a way i feel like no one would really care. like no one would be bothered by it. if anything it would just be something else my parents would have to worry about. i'm already a problem at least they wouldn't have to deal with me anymore.

i just really want out im just so tired. and i quit honestly don't have anyone i can talk to about this. if i was still seeing my therapist wouldn't be able to say anything to her. because well i would be saying i wanna kill myself and that's something she has to report. same thing if i were to talk to the school counselors and it's not like i can tell my parents.