Kuroken ~ Set for me?

"I hate(love) you"

Kenma pov ch.13 -

(I hate you... I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you........ I hate you kuroo tetsurou. I do...)

I walked home in complete and utter silence, my mind being the loudest thing I could hear by far.

(Kuroo I hate you...)

No matter how hard I tried my mind just couldn't go blank, and as soon as I reached my house and entered the front door I lost it.

"I hate you kuro... I hate that I love you...."

My mom slowly walked out of her room holding a pan.
"Oh Kenma it's just you! Thank goodness! Your not supposed to be home from school yet? What happened?"

She slowly put the pan down on the kitchen counter and turned facing me. I couldn't say anything. My legs just slowly slugged its way over to my mom like my body had ran out of juices for the day.

"Mom... I hate kuroo, I never wanna see him again. So why..... why do I still love him.."

Tears welled back up in my eyes and this time I couldn't stop them from coming out.

"Tell me why mom... please-...."

She wrapped her arms around me and buried me in her embrace.

"Oh sweetie... I can't explain love...it's just there.. and it's strong, so much stronger than hate or anger. Once you start truly loving someone it's hard to stop..."

She wiped the tears off my face and caressed my chin gently.

" you wanna tell me why you hate him?..."

I nodded but stayed put in her arms. If I saw her eyes I'd start crying again, and I don't want to cry over him anymore.. it's hurting me.

" we were supposed to talk about what happened today.. he didn't walk to school with me but we were supposed to eat lunch together. I went to go meet him in our spot on the rooftop like usual... but when I got there runa was on top of kuro kissing him...  After that I left.. I'm done playing games with kuro. I'm sorry I left school early... but before I could realize what I was doing I was already headed down the street."

I backed away from the hug no longer feeling the urge to cry.

"I feel like I'm being toyed with.. and I hate it.. I just... please tomorrow. Can I just stay home?..."

I was so grateful to have a mom like mines because she understood me.

"Of course you can sweetie. We can have movie night tonight too, how's that sound??"

I smiled slightly feeling better atleast for the time being.

"That sounds good mom. And... if he tries to come then please... don't let him in. I don't want to see him."

She nodded and I walked myself upstairs to go shower, change out of my school clothes, grab my psp and wash my face.

When I was done I started to head downstairs but when I reached the final step then I heard the doorbell ring. I couldn't tell if it was my dad or if it was kuroo, but until I knew I'd sit on the stairs and wait.

I peeked around the wall to see my mom answering the door. And I immediately pulled my head back leaning against the wall on the stairs so he couldn't see me.

"I'm sorry.. but is Kenma home..? I've been looking for him all day I really need to talk to him please? Just for a minute...?"

I could hear kuroo pleading my mom to let him in. Part of me wanted to tiptoe back upstairs and shove whatever furniture I could in front of my door so he couldn't get in.

But I was finished letting him be in control of me. I'd push him out by force if I had to, I don't care how lazy I am.. today is not the day and neither is tomorrow...

"I'm sorry sweetie.. I don't think right nows a very good time for that..."

"Please ms. Kozume... I know kenmas mad at me and he has every right to be.. but I need to talk to him..."

"I know there's stuff you two need to work out.. but I can't choose when Kenma will be ready to talk to you again. Only he can... and until then I'm sorry but I can't let you in..."

"....ok.....sorry again.. thanks anyway.. if you don't mind please tell Kenma I stopped by..."

I could hear the door shut and lock as I let go of a breath I didn't even know I was holding in.

"You can come out now Kenma"

I stepped out from behind the staircase to be met with a face full of happiness.

"Ready for movie night?!"

I smiled turning off my phone and tossed it on the couch.

"Yeah. Thank you again mom"