Kuroken ~ Set for me?

=I wont let you down kenma=

Kuroo pov ch.16 -

I sat down in my second period class tapping my foot at a steady rhythm.

(...he's probably not gonna come, matter of fact he's definitely not gonna come.)

I took a deep breath and sighed before taking out my past homework. (Can't believe I really just did that corny shit... there's no way I just wrote a note... but I'd do anything to have Kenma back.)

2nd period passed slowly and steadily, and then 3rd period passed too.

Normally I'd be the first out of the classroom but today I was the last. I didn't wanna be eager to see him when he might not even show up.

My walk was slower than usual. Almost tripping on my way up the stairs because of how much I dreaded the fact that he saw me and runs up here.

(I hope he's not thinking about that... he most definitely is but... I wish that he wasn't...)

I slowly extended my hand out reaching for the door. (Please please please...)

I twisted the knob pushing the door open to see Kenma sitting to the side, his slim body slanted as he sat against the wall.

"kuro..."

I stepped in closing the door behind me and sat down opposite of him.

"kenma.."

His eyes traveled everywhere but my face.

"I don't like this feeling kuro."

(It was my fault. And although I was being head harder before, I finally understand since his mom told me what's going on. )

"Kenma I- ..um. listen I have something to talk to you about but it would probably be best if we didn't talk about it here."

His eyes finally met mines and god how I missed staring into them.

"if you have something to tell me then why can't you tell me here?.."

I looked his slim body up and down. (I can't just tell him that it's cause if everything works out id really like to kiss him and make up for lost time...)

"I-.. I just wouldn't advise us to talk about it here.."

The smaller boys eyes darted back down to the floor but now his cheeks were tinted pink.

" ok..."

(Is he nervous to be talking to me again?..)

"Kenma... I know you don't wanna hear this right now but.... I made a huge mistake and I'm sorry..."

He didn't say anything, instead I watched as he slowly brought his knees up to his chest and hugged them, his eyes suddenly reconnecting with mine.

"it's... fine.. I guess... I just Kuro if I can't... nevermind... um.. are we still friends?..."

I scrunched up my nose my lips slightly parting.

"kenma... is that what you thought? That we weren't friends anymore?"

I got up walking over to Kenma and sat down directly in front of him. Kind of distracted by the fact that I'm now close enough to kiss him. But that was a luxury I'd need to work so hard to earn.

"kind of.. what else was I supposed to think... we got into a big fight and you're with runa now so... I figured you were done with me.."

I slowly reached for his hands not wanting to scare him away. They connected subtly at first and then fully interlocked. They were cold and I hated that this whole time I haven't been there to warm them up.

"kenma me and you being 'done' isn't even a thing. It's not real because that's something that could never happen even if all odds were against us. And just so you know I'm not with runa.. I've never been with runa.. I couldn't do it... you were all that I-..... point is we weren't a thing.. and that day you saw us I had told her to go away and that it was our spot... but she refused and since she knew you were coming she well.. you know the rest... I came looking for you immediately and cussed out runa but you were already gone I couldn't find you anywhere.. even though I skipped and went looking in all your classes waiting for you..."

(But I should've been there.. I should've tried harder...)

"Oh... mm I had went home.."

I rubbed my fingers over his small ones and looked up at him. His face was slightly red and his eyes told a million and one stories.

"Kenma... I should've been there.. I know I should've. Even if you had to physically push me away I should've been there... so please let me make it up to you this weekend.. I just want you back kit-kenma.. that's all I want."

Now there were held back tears forming in both of our eyes but we didn't cry.

"it won't be easy kuroo..."

I lightly squeezed his hands in mine.

" I don't expect it to be."

I brought his hands up to my lips and peppered them with tiny kisses.

"I'll work hard kenma."

A tear rolled down the smaller boys cheek and I rested my forehead against his giving one last kiss to his left hand and used our other interlinked hands to wipe the tear that slowly rolled down his face. We never broke eye contact.

"I know you will... kuro please don't disappoint me... because you got my hopes up.."

I opened my mouth to speak but instead the bell rang and we both got up and grabbed our bags to head to our next classes.

As we headed out the door and began to separate ways my head overflowed with thoughts.

"I won't let you down kenma.. never again.."