Kuroken ~ Set for me?

-Pinned against a tree-

Kenma pov ch.17 -

I can't believe I let one slip..
Not just that but I let him back in. I knew that would happen, I can't help but need him around me there's no denying that. I just hope he doesn't let me down again...

The time passed pretty quickly after that little incident. Then after school yet again kuroo was there waiting for me.

"You ready?.. kenma.."

I simply nodded my head and we went on straight to my house.

When we got there I found my mom putting her stuff in the trunk with my dad for this so called vacation.

(Great.. so this isn't a dream..)

My mom had supposedly already packed my bag for me so I went upstairs quickly to grab a few more essentials.

My psp, my favorite hoodie, and my new pack of rubber bands. I'd normally cut my hair every month since it grows pretty fast but I didn't feel like cutting it this month and now I kinda like that I can tie it back.

I walked back downstairs not in much of a rush with my last few items and popped them all in the middle seat next to kuroo.

I know it seemed stupid because I could've put the hoodie and rubber bands in the trunk but it was like a little protective barrier.

Only problem with it was that it didn't work.

"Kenma? What are the rubber bands for?"
I can tell he was nervous to ask because he fiddled with his hair.

"I grew my hair out a little bit.. so I can tie it back now.."

"Oh."
I watched as he sat back in his seat not saying anything else but his face was slightly red. (What the hell is he thinking about...?)

My mom ended up turning on music the whole ride over there to ease the strange mood that was in the car.

My parents talked to each other, occasionally asking kuroo questions while I played on my psp.

Thankfully the ride wasn't horribly long but at the same time it was long enough to make me want to puke.

My dad parked the car in front of a random cabin and got out to go get the air bnb keys while the rest of us grabbed our bags.

When he came back with the keys we all followed him inside and it was surprisingly nicer than I'd anticipated.

Only major problem was that there were two rooms... each only having one bed.

I walked into the room without saying anything and put my stuff down in a corner on the side I normally sleep on.

"If you want I can sleep on the couch in the den?..."

I huffed almost laughing in a sarcastic tone.
"Yeah right.. my mom would kill me if she found out you weren't sleeping in here on the bed."

I heard him sigh as he placed down his bags in the other corner.

*knock* *knock* *knock*

My mom peeked around the corner before taking a small step into kuroo and I's room.

"Heyyy kiddos, um your dad and I are gonna be in the backyard barbecuing, feel free to go explore just as long as your back by ten okay?"

I nodded folding my arms across my chest while kuroo said 'okay'.

I was still upset they she invited him, and more so that she didn't tell me until the last minute.

As soon as she left so did I making my way in the opposite direction to head out the front door.

I picked up the pace slightly feeling him behind me.

"Kenma seriously... we're doing this again?"

I simply shrugged my shoulders and kept walking through the forest, the trees were huge and at this point I wasn't even paying attention to which way I was going.

I just wanted to be somewhere that I could feel at ease. I turned another corner but before I could take another step kuroo caught up and stopped me.

"what the hell are you doing Kenma. Do you even remember which direction we came from??"

He pinned me against a tree and I let out a shaky breath I didn't even know I was holding in.

"If I wasn't here would you remember how to get back?! Or are you meaning to tell me that this whole time you haven't been taking care of yourself at all?"

I let my hands rest on his chest making an effort to push him away.

"Kenma answer me...."

I didn't want to, I wanted anything but to answer him but at this point there was no one around to save me but myself.

"I don't know.... I don't have an answer for your question kuroo... I lost myself a long time ago... there was never any getting back to where I was... I might've forgotten how to find my way.."

I tilted my head back on the tree looking up.
(A treehouse?... what's this doing here?)

"Kenma please... you need to promise me you'll take care of yourself. If I were to pass how would I know you'd still be okay?..."

My chest ached just from the sound of that. "Don't say things like that kuro... I don't want you to pass... also come here I wanna check something out."

I had planned to find out what this was alone but... only Kuro remembers the way back.. and what he said just now. Not having anymore time with him scared me, I never want that to happen.

I Grabbed hold of one of his wrists that had me trapped in a corner just a moment ago.

I watched as the taller boy tilted his head and I walked around the tree looking for a way up.

(Bingo, a ladder.)

My hand released his wrists and I started climbing up the ladder unannounced.

"Kenma I won't say that anymore but please, what if that's not safe?!"

I kept climbing regardless.
"You'll catch me if I fall won't you?"
I could practically hear his annoyed yet satisfied face from the top of the ladder.

I climbed on top of the wood carefully and looked down at kuro.

"Well... you coming?..."