Kuroken ~ Set for me?

-Maybe-

Kenma pov ch.15 -

This morning when I woke up I leaned my back against my headboard and cried.

I don't know why I was crying now when it's been the same thing everyday for weeks now.

It's like no matter how long I stay away from him his presence just won't go away.

Not that I want it to go away... I never want it to go away.. but it hurts knowing that even though I still feel it I can't even bring myself to be around him.

At this point I was thinking about running back to him but... I'm scared.. I'm scared he'll reject talking to me and leave me to be humiliated for even trying.

I'm scared that the next time he tries to stop me I'll let him.. and then when he comes back he'll toy with me again.

Not that he even knows that I like him... never let me get around to telling him...

I sighed and got ready for school like usual except when I went downstairs it was highly unusual.

It was supposed to be a regular Friday but my mom looked slightly nervous and asked if we can talk.

I sat down next to her on the couch in silence until she spoke.

"...soo um... I know I shouldn't have waited to tell you this sweetie... but I wasn't sure how exactly to tell you..."

My attention turned to her as she faced her whole body towards me.

"We're going on a camping trip this weekend..."

I shrugged my shoulders unfazed by the news.
"Okay cool, what's wrong with that?..."

My mom began fiddling with her fingers which made me nervous as well.

"...Kenma.. tetsurous coming..."

I could feel my heart thumping out of my chest.
Kuro... he was coming on the trip..
What would I even say to him.. or do I just not say anything at all..

"Kuro.. as in the Kuro...."

Unfortunately my mom nodded her head to my previous statement.

"We leave today after you two get out of school."

I ran my hand through my hair standing up and grabbed my backpack before making my way to the front door.

(I don't want to deal with this right now... I can't deal with this right now..)

My mouth stayed shut as I made my way out the door and walked to school.

Unfortunately what I had hoped wouldn't happen did.. My body stopped in its tracks as I saw kuroo standing in front of the path I use to get to school.

"...kenma... you don't have to talk to me.. just.. can I walk to school with you..?"

I put my head down walking past him. I didn't want to let him in again.. I was scared.. what if..

Even though I didn't want to I said something anyway. Still not stopping in my tracks.

"..well.... you coming... kuro..."

I could suddenly hear faint footsteps getting louder behind me until the boy I'm currently in a confusing relationship with was right next to me.

"...thanks......"

"Don't thank me kuro... I don't want your gratitude."

My arms folded across my chest as we made our way into the school.

"I still care about you Kenma..."

"Then stop caring.."

We walked in silence for another minute. Right before we made it to my class kuro spoke again.

"you know that's impossible kit... so don't even ask me to do that..."

I kept my head straight walking into my classroom slower than I had anticipated I would. It took a miracle for me to not look back at him and see if he was standing there or walking away.

Or maybe he was staring at me with an expression on his face that would've been engraved in my mind had I looked.

..I didn't look. And unfortunately I regret not doing it, but as things stand now I'll be stuck with him for 3 days so I'm sure I'll be seeing multiple crazy facial expressions.

I sat down in my seat looking up at my teacher when a sudden feeling of embarrassment washed over me.

Kuro was still here now in my classroom handing my teacher a folded note before making his exit.

The teacher smiles before walking over and leaving the note on my desk.

She bent down in front of my table and started whispering, even though it was still loud enough for half the class to hear.

"heyy I think your little friend wanted me to give this to you. I'd advise you open it after class though, he said it was kind of private."

My face heated up quicker than a microwave as I felt the heat burn through my cheeks.

(A note... the Kuro wrote a note... but he's always said notes were corny and that he'd never do something like that...)

I hid the note away in my bag and nodded my head, letting the teacher knew that I understood what she meant.

I couldn't stop thinking about what the note said the whole time I was in class.

(What does he want this time?...)

It had been an awfully long first period but as soon as the bell rang I was the first one out of the class.

I unzipped my bag grabbing the note back out and read it.

/meet at our normal spot at lunch. Please kitten../

I ripped up the note that I was unfortunately so eager to read. (Meet at our normal spot my ass)

That stopped being our normal spot a long time ago. Once it became his and runas...

I walked to my next class unsure of what to do.. (did I want to go? Of course deep down I did.. but what if I broke down at the door like I did last time.. I don't want that again.)

I might... maybe...