Kuroken ~ Set for me?

<Ill never let you go again>

Kuroo pov ch.14 -
At first a day past. Then a week passed... then two weeks passed... then three.

When Kenma came back to school we didn't walk there together, each lunch together, walk home together...

In fact whenever I saw him in the hallways he wouldn't even bother looking at me...

At volleyball practice he'd practice setting with anyone else and then would hardly set to me during practice matches.

I tried to get his attention and stop him to talk to him every day, more times than I can count, but nothings been working...

I walked home in silence with nothing but regret filling my mind as I worked up the courage to try again tomorrow, even if today was just another failed attempt.

I got home and headed straight to my room per usual. My mom used to greet me at the door but since she found out what happened she acknowledged that I needed some space...

(If I couldn't have Kenma then I didn't want anybody... and that was just the reality of it...)

I wish he knew that nobody could ever replace him..

If I ever have him by me I'll never let him go again.
A tear slipped out of my eye and I wiped it immediately not wanting anymore to come out. It's been 3 weeks and I still can't help but cry everyday...

I haven't talked to runa since the incident, as a matter of fact I haven't really talked to much to anybody.

As much as I hate to admit it bokuto was right...
It did come out... and in a way I was right too.. I'm an asshole....

I'm not even with him and I hurt him..
if we were dating who knows what I would do to him...

I'd never cheat and I'd love him to the moon and back but... that's not good enough for Kenma. He deserves the world.. and I don't have the world to give him...

My thoughts draped over me like rain on a sunny day.

I got ready for bed quickly and tucked myself in.

(I'm done trying to beg him to talk to me. I'll force the issue if I have to.)

My eyes shut closed and my thoughts slowly faded away into a blur until I was finally sound asleep.

Not that I could get a good nights rest knowing that Kenma probably hated me for everything I caused.
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The next day~
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When I woke up I got ready the quickest I ever had and skipped breakfast. As soon as I was done I headed over to kenmas house and knocked on the front door lightly.

When kenmas mom opened the door her face went from shocked to happy and I was glad she hadn't already thrown me out.

"Hi hun! I was just thinking about you. Kenmas been... lonely and he still refuses to talk to you... but I know that he needs you, I know that you need each other so the longer you wait to fix this the worse it gets..."

She slowly stepped out of the house closing the door behind her.

"You've always come on all our family trips and kenmas always went to yours. We're currently getting an air bnb for a camping trip and Kenma doesn't know yet. Do you feel up to coming with us?... you don't have to if you don't want to but I figured if we went somewhere Kenma would have no choice but to talk to you.."

I instinctively hugged Ms. Kozume trying not to let any tears slip out in front of them.

"I'd love to come Ms. Kozume, thank you seriously this means so much to me that your letting me do this. I promise I'll make sure I never hurt Kenma like this again."

She rubbed circles on my back in a motherly way like she did to me when I was little.

"You can't promise something like that kuroo, but you can promise me that you'll protect Kenma and his heart. He has so much love for you he just has a hard time saying it."

"I love him too.. I just wish I never told him that I loved him in a serious type of way.. this never would've happened..."

She let go of my back and backed away from the hug.

"Wait you told him that?.. then why is there still a problem.. he likes you too?.. what's happening really? I picked up bits and pieces from Kenma but he never told me the full story."

My eyes widened in shock and I ran my hand through my hair nervously.

"did I hear that right?... Kenma... he likes me?..."

His mom nodded seemingly just as confused as me.

"He said he tried to tell you on the trip and just recently was going to tell you at school? Did he not get to tell you after all?...."

My heart skipped a beat as my brain ran through the memories of the past 3 weeks.
(That day when I left.... Just recently at school... the night we kissed.... That whole time... he was trying to tell me.. but I wouldn't let him..)

"I-I I'm sorry I've.. I've gotta go I have a lot to think about. Thank you for letting me come.. and the information.. it helped a lot, seriously!"

I could feel my face heating up immensely as I bowed and turned around to leave.

" Of course sweetie! I'll text your mom about the trip I know you have a lot to think about but I'll see you this weekend!"

I waved and began walking away as I heard her open and close the door.

(Kenma... he likes me.. he really likes me...)

My head felt like it was spinning.

I know he deserves better but.... I'm selfish.. and I want him.. I want every part of him for myself.

"Kenma.. I promise I'll never let you go again."