Benji (Ben Pincus / Kenji Kon) snippets

Caught. [POST SEASON 5]

     Kenji loved Ben. He was in love with him, and he was sure Ben was aware. Still, his romantic trust issues blocked the path to full commitment (thanks Sandra,) and it was obvious.

     He cussed himself for being cautious about his ties with Ben, especially after everything they'd been through on Nublar and Sorna. However, there was a part of him that said "you needed each other for survival and support," no matter how differently he looked at Ben.

     He told Ben he loved him. He told everyone— Darius, Brooklynn, Sammy and Yas. But there was something more about the way he said it to Ben. Something with passion, and he was afraid of it.

     Damn Sandra for screwing him the way she did (literally and figuratively,) for fucking up his once-excited approach to feeling too deeply for someone. Damn her for breaking the bridge he could've taken to continue further with Ben, because he knew he wanted to; she just wrecked his head and gave him pathetic fear of romantic abandonment. As if general abandonment wasn't enough.

     With problems of his own, Ben saw through the "let's get off the island first" act and understood Kenji's hesitation. He always reminded Kenji that he too loved him, that he cared for him and would do anything for him— including moving slowly. Kenji admired that and found himself falling harder than he intended to.

     The only concern with his affiliation was that his stress hormones had been raging on the islands, which triggered his desire for physicality. 

     Would he have told Ben he was horny on the islands? Hell no. They had many more worries than Kenji's... situation. Besides, how would he be able to communicate that to him unless the danger was low, or he was equally vulnerable?

     Luckily for Kenji, their current status checked both of those boxes. They had escaped Sorna on Dave and Roxie's boat, Darius' brother Brand being a recruit of the rescue team. As for vulnerability, Ben didn't shy away from comfort; he had lay on he and Kenji's bed in only a lent pair of Yas' sweatpants, staring at Kenji expectantly when he returned from his turn to shower.

     Now, Kenji lay with him, shoulders level with Ben's hips. The elder gently kissed his fingertips; something he'd seen in Titanic and thought it was hot. Ben agreed, keeping eye contact lazily, smiling faintly.

     Kenji curled his fingers around Ben's, lips brushing his stomach. Ben licked his lips and touched Kenji's damp hair, stringing it in between his thumb and pointer. Kenji flashed him a smile and left a kiss next to his belly button, then right above the waistline.

     Ben giggled, "Mmm... to trochę łaskocze." ("Mmm... that tickles a bit.")

     "Naprawdę?" he laughed airily. ("Really?")

     "Tak... tak." ("Yeah... yeah.")

     Kenji inhaled and kissed his stomach more sloppily, leaving saliva in his path. He sat up a little, pressing his lips to Ben's nipple; gingerly at first, then firmer.

     Ben bit his lip, letting out a soft noise. He let head fall back to the pillow, feeling Kenji kiss his throat before retreating back to his chest. He held the back of Kenji's neck, sighing softly.

     Kenji licked up Ben's chest, from his nipple to his collarbone. He sat up on his knees, gazing down at Ben lustfully, fingers wrapped on the waistline of Yas' sweatpants, preparing to pull them down, well-aware his nails were hitched to his boxers.

     "Ufam ci," Ben whispered, nudging Kenji's wrist. ("I trust you.")

     Kenji leaned down to finally kiss his wet lips.

     Creeeaaak.

     Ben and Kenji jumped, staggering around each other.

     "I— Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry y'all!"

     Sammy stood in the doorway, hand grasping the knob. She seemed stuck in place.

     "I— I—"

     Ben stuttered nonsense, and Sammy quickly closed the door.

     "Uh, Dave... Dave and Roxie prepared some food," she uttered ashamedly through the door. Her footsteps faded faster than they came.

     "I, uh..."

     "Jest w porządku." Ben cleared his throat, neatening his hair with his fingers. ("It's fine.")

     Kenji nodded, making room by standing up. He rubbed his face and watched Ben gather himself, staring awkwardly at the knuckles he was cracking.

     "I—"

     "Zobaczymy, kiedy dotrzemy na stały ląd." ("We'll see when we reach the mainland.")