the secret

12 the bad Memories

I was still in the living room all the girls had went to bed hours ago, but I could sleep even time I closed my eyes I see those eyes those hunting brown eyes
*flashback *
It was my birthday to day I was turning 19 I was so excited about turning 19 me and my boyfriend And friends was going out for my birthday and then we would come back to my uncles house to Celebrate with my uncle because he was at work right now so we would have to celebrate tonight with him
So we was on our way to a club that we had been to before we hed our fake id's that my boyfriend had made us Since almost all of us was under age
We showed the clubs guards our id's
And they let us in
It was going good until we got back home
My uncle had called and said he had to work late for some reason so he couldn't make it so I was kinda upset about that but it just got worse after that
I was try to make some of my boyfriend favorites sweets and I missed that up and he didn't like because after my friends had went home because we wasn't going to celebrate anymore
My boyfriend started hitting me and calling name
You are noting but a bitch no wonder you dad left to with your uncle after your mom died He yelled at me
You can't even make cookies and you are no good at anything
I don't even know why I'm still with your ugly ass He added
I'm sorry I will try again and if I'm so bad why don't you leave me I cry out because I need you if it was because of that I wouldn't be with you all you are is a dunb bitch and a hoe he yelled again as he kicked me in the ribs please just let me go I will leave just stop please I cry out in pain was having a hard time breathing he probably broke my fucking rib again
Why didn't you die with your mother you would have been better off dead he said and the next thing I know was he had a knife in his hand and then it was in my leg, stop it Please I will do anything just stop it I cried, anything? He questioned as he took the knife out if my leg, yes anything I cried but little did I know what he was thinking at the time
I must have fall asleep because when I woke up I was in my room and Lia was there what happened , oww I asked and then I remembered what my boyfriend who said he love me did to me on my birthday do you remember anything Lia asked, Yes I remember everything I cried out
I'm sorry I wasn't there to stop him
It's not your fault you didn't know he was going to do that I said yea I know but I still feel bad Lia said dose my uncle know I don't want him to know about any of this I said looking at her with tears in my eyes he doesn't know and I won't tell him if you don't want him to know she said with her own tears in her eyes
*end of flashback *
I wipeed away my tears and looked at the time it was still early morning but not to early the sun had just started coming up so I walked out to the garden and sit down on the grass and watched the sun come up

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AN

well I wasn't almost crying you was

I do not agree with any of the stuff that is in this book and please of you are going through anything like this please get help

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