the secret

71 mixs emotions

Enzos Pov

It's now around four In the morning. I haven't been able To sleep. My mind has been racing with thoughts all night. I was in the kitchen thinking about everything that has happened in the last six months, and was trying to figure out if I made the right decision.
After a little bit missy walked into the kitchen and ignored me, I miss have Conversations with her and I don't know how I can make her not mad at me.
She got the Cup of water and finished it. She was going to leave until I stopped her.

"Missy, wait" i said.

"I don't want to talk right now" she said then went to leave.

" I know you don't want to talk to me but I need you to know I didn't know that he was still alive until yesterday morning when Trinity's phone got a message from him" i said with my head laying on the Cabinet.

"yeah well you still knew and didn't fucking tell me" she said.

" I wasn't sure if it was actually him because When I asked her about it she said it was an old friend from school" i said as i looked up from the cabinet.

"uh huh sure you weren't, I'm going now" she said.

" Just so you know I broke up with her," i said out of nowhere.

"You didn't have to," she said.

" she lied and I shouldn't have asked her when you had just lost zach well when we thought you had, so yea I did" he said.

"Well it was your decision, as far as I'm concerned the zach that I loved is still dead, he could have call at least once to say that he was Alive, but he didn't, and just so you know I don't hate you, I'm just hurt that you technically knew he was alive but didn't tell me" she said, she loved him?

" I know, so you loved him? Maybe he couldn't have I'm not trying to make excuses for him but you don't know what he was thinking while he was gone, he said he did it to keep you safe so maybe he didn't have a choice if he could have called, I'm happy to hear that I thought you hated me for that and because I started dating trinity" i said as i looked at her.

" yeah i guess, I can keep myself safe I don't need everyone thinking I can't keep myself safe, but don't think just because I don't hate you means i will forgive you at least not for a little while, I'm sorry I haven't Been talking to you, I guess it's just my way of healing" she said.

" Just promise that you will at least listen to what he has To say? I know but we Don't know what his half brother was Like, I know but at least I know you don't hate me, I get it" i said.

"I will Think About it, I guess but still, it would take a lot of shit to make me hate you," she said.

" Alright, you won't know until you talk to him, well I hope I don't do that, but if you don't hate me, what about zach do you hate him for what he did?" i asked.

"I know, I hope you don't either but never know, I don't know, I'm not sure if I'm more mad or more hurt that he acted dead for six months, I guess i might hate him but, I'm not sure, all I know is that I'm not going to forgive Him anytime soon" she said.

" Alright, well when you figure it out let me know, I don't blame you but if you still love him you won't be mad at him for long" i said.

"Okay I will, I know that but I'm not sure if i do Still love him or not, so why are you up anyways?" she asked.

" I couldn't sleep, did I make the right decision by breaking up with Trinity?" i asked, I couldn't figure it out it's like I made the right decision but also at the same time it doesn't.