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[old entry] To the guy who loved me 'so much'

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I saw you from the corner of my eye,
This was the very first time I saw you.
You said you like anime
and that made me want to be friends with you,
we begun sharing our thoughts what we know about
anime, and our life being an "Otaku".

Time passes by so fast,
at first I was imagining things,
that maybe our friendship was onesided
but now we're both best friends

One day, a random thought popped up
and it was just a stupid question.
I know it was weird.
I know it may be sort of funny.
Then it just spilled out from my mouth.

My face got red because of embarrassment
But your face remains the same
You said "of course no"
And I laugh inside because of my clumsiness
We chatted afterwards just like always,
Still sharing thoughts about anime,

You suddenly remind me my question.
Then you said a lot of things.
Then you said the 3 words
The words I never been received
You said that you love me

I was shocked because of you said it all of this suddenly
I just agreed because I was too shocked.

Days passed by
I feel weird,

I just agreed because I don't want to hurt you
and now I started to give you reasons to stop loving me

But you're really blinded from love that sets me free and yet traps me.

I'm emotional,
A "suicidal freak",
An alien,
A weirdo

Things that a guy probably doesn't want to deal with

I hope you could stop loving me
Because you'll only end up getting hurt

I'm sorry