The trail and error of life

Chapter 30: Sorry! Its reflex

Amyra's POV

"Take care of the mother" I instructed Kevin and he gave me a salute before they joined Harsh on the elevator. "Good night guys!" Ayaan wished us all before he started moving towards the lift. "Woah.woah.. you don't have to drive to the next city now do you? Give her some company" Dhrithi ordered Ayaan and the three of us exchanged confused looks but Avi's face suddenly changed to a look of realisation once they landed on Dhrithi. "Yeah...right. Give Amyra some company man. It would seem really dead when all of us leave at once after hours of haunting her home. Where's your head man?" Avi ridiculed and Ayaan looked at me. "No..no. It's fine. I'm now used-" "Okay bye guys good night. I have to drop her off and maybe meet her family. Bye bye" Avi quickly cut me off and rushed to the elevator. 

Once they left, Ayaan trailed behind. "It's okay.. they were just joking. You go home" I confirmed. " Do you want to go up to the terrace?" He asked instead and a huge grin broke on my face. "Really?" I asked excited and he nodded smiling. " You know.. all these days, I wanted to go there but by the time I come back from office its really dark and honestly I am a bit scared of being alone in dark and climbing all the way up to the seventeenth floor is another task. At that hour, there won't be much people using lift right? I'm scared to go on lifts alone...I'm scared I'll get a panick attack and then die" I realised I was babbling when I noticed Ayaan watching me with an amused look on his face. I didn't even realise I had already locked the door and moved into the elevator as well. Oh no, my old chatty self just made an appearance. I am surprised. I dont recall this happening in a long time. Woah! Thats.. I don't know.. maybe if my new friends come across chatty me, they'll probably unfriend me for being too annoying. 

We reached the terrace garden and I instantly regretted coming here without a jacket. It felt so cold that I started shivering. "It is really cold" Ayaan commented and I looked at him to find him rubbing his hands together. "I wanted to be out here. I never get to come up here at this time ..well because I'm scared but it's too..co.o.o.ld" I stuttered feeling disappointed. "Hold on! You stay here and I'll grab jackets" Ayaan said as he started to leave. "Wait, no it's fine" I discouraged. "It's just four floors down. I'll come fast" He informed as he sprinted back into the building. Ha! Too bad the sky is all cloudy but at least the lit up building stretched across the city is pretty to look at. My nose is frozen. I should take a hot cocoa or some tea before going to bed. What would have Ammi and Mami Ji talked about that she got so triggered? Did she want me to go back? She wasnt cruel or anything so how can-. I screamed when suddenly I felt something fall on me but I was silenced quickly by the hand cupping my mouth. "It's me, don't scream or people will come and beat the crap out of me" Ayaan's voice whisper-yelled. I stretched my head back to find him looking alarmed with wide eyes. His eyes were looking really big as light reflected on his black orbs making them twinkle. These are really beautiful eyes. My gaze shifted when he slowly brought his left hand towards my face and I looked back at his eyes making his snap at mine. He quickly looked away, removing his hands from my mouth as he cleared his throat. 

"Sorry! It's reflex" I apologised for screaming. "I called you one time but you seemed lost in thoughts. I was just trying to place the jacket on your hands" He explained, still looking a bit flushed and I gave him a goofy grin, embarrassed. We walked around a bit before settling on the swing. "Ammi was talking about getting divorce" What the hell and why the hell am I saying this?! Maybe the same thought was going through his mind because he seemed surprised but that soon was took over by a look of understanding. "Is that why you were so lost after the call?" Came his question after a few seconds and it was my turn to be surprised. How did he notice that? I nodded, not meeting his eyes. "And how do you feel about it?" He asked. "I don't know.. I most definitely don't want to live with him but I don't know why I have all these fears and thoughts and it all feels like too much to handle. So many things to the think about" Why the hell are we talking about all this?? My mind screamed while my mouth was doing all the talking but for some reason it felt good telling this out to someone. " I'm really sorry, I dont know what got into me. You shouldn't be hearing all this" I apologised, embarrassd. "Do you know what it is that's scaring you?" He asked after a minute or so and I felt him move closer to me. " I honestly don't know.. I'm scared of people. Remember how hard it was for me to talk to even you guys after....I feel kind of lost and if it wasn't for you folks, I wouldn't have been able to make it..........."