AMOR SERIES 1: One Cold Night

21: Vingt et unième nuit

One Cold Night
21: Sick Leave

Vera Alette's POV

I've not felt this empty and heavy for a long time, parang pasan ko ang buong mundo paggising ko, I want to stay in my apartment and sleep all day so that I won't think of anything, but I have to get up, take a bath, and go to work.

Wala rin akong ganang kumain kaya lumabas ako na di nag-breakfast.

I was ambling, wishing that I wouldn't reach my destination.

After my talk with my mom, I was still filled with questions... Everything was still hazy, I am sort of looking forward to talking to her, to ask her again... About things. But I also don't want to see her again, ayaw ko na ulit mapalapit sakanya, I don't want to get attached to her again knowing that we're just going to talk things out and everything... ends there. 

I hate it, having to move forward without those people who you expected to be with all the time, through the shits and all.  

I stopped in my tracks and looked around me, nothing changed, I was the only one who seemed lost, the world won't stop for you, no one would, nothing would. 

I swallowed the lump in my throat and continued walking. 

"Just your usual routine, Alette... like the norm- WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE YOU TRYING TO DO?!" I furiously looked back at the car which just honked at me! Sa akin nakatapat yung sasakyan! Edi malamang ako yung binubusinahan! 

"Ayos ka lang? You seem bothered," Iyon ang bungad niya sa akin, nakababa ang window niya at nakasilip siya doon. My shoulders relaxed as I looked at him. His eyes, I looked at his expressive eyes, it's been a while since I've seen those pair of eyes. Just how fast can he read me?

"Y-yeah, don't do that again..." I said and looked away, I was about to leave but he called me again. 

"Vera, hop in." 

"And why would I?" I asked him, raising a brow at him. 

How can he approach me so casually even after not contacting him for so long? I somehow agree with Lisa, he's tanga. 

"Vera, ngayon lang, para namang kaya kong mawalan ng pake sayo even if that's what you showed me," He almost rolled his eyes at me and that did not surprise me because I would also want to roll at myself when I caused myself some trouble.