Btw. Thanks a lot for the absolute love of this book. Just so you know, it will be ending soon, and I'll be moving on to the second part of this story. Or series. I'll give you a few hints to what is waiting for you. Frankie. Stars. Just keep that in mind.
~Penelope~
I have always known about her dad. I thought she just needed some time and was getting the right help. Nope. She is only now getting better. Which is absolutely ok. Everyone has their own pace. She's trying. Which is good. I just wished she saw how good her journey has been.
"Love isn't about dates, marriage, and whatnot. Sure, it's a big part of it, but love is also something small. Something you share with someone you LOVE."
I always told myself.
"Healing isn't about the 'time limit.' Taking as much time as you need is the right step to a good destination. The journey to getting there is important."
My mom always told me.
It's important to understand how love works because it works in many different ways.
I've always dealt with how I looked. Which is why seeing her so distraught switches something in me...
Pain
Seeing her get better....Switches something else in me...
♡Love♡
I've felt it many times.
I love her very much
But sometimes I can't help her.
And I always try to be there.
But sometimes, I can't even deal with myself.
~Declan~
Mom put some cut-up apples in my room.
"Who is Hazel? Do I actually care about her?" Yes.
She has a place in my heart, a place where I see her like how I saw my cousin. I don't want that happening to her.
Not again.
Momma brought me some orange juice.
"Do you like her? Do you have a crush?" No. I've never had those feelings for anyone. I'm happy not to put myself into a relationship. makes my life easier.
She's my friend. I care a lot about her. But no. I couldn't ever imagine myself being with someone.
Dad came in to check on me while I'm doing my work. laundry in his hands.
"Declan, what has your cousin done wrong?" A lot. Too much.
Mathew isn't and has never been a good person. Fed into my now dead cousin's problems. That she's a man. He always said,
Dad came in telling me that dinner is almost done.
"Do you miss him- I mean her?" Yes, I grew up with Jessica. I miss her all the time.
"Do you wish she never died?" All the time
Hazel~ 04.May.2024/Saturday
"Did you try some of the tricks I told you about?"
"Yes."
"Which one?"
"123 Step."
"Was it a bad week?"
"No... But Wednesday might've been the worst day of this good week."
"What happened? if you're ready to tell me."
"I...I couldn't breathe. It's like my lungs gave up on me. I had to try that method to get back."
"With your friend? Penoly? Penny-"
"Penelope."
"Right, sorry. Was she there to help?"
"No."
"No? Where was she?"
"Dance classes."
"She dances? It's pretty good for her health."
"This week was also our last. ¹Wir haben Sommerferien."
"Oh, right. Well, Hazel, continue telling me more."
《This was my safe place》
Translation: ¹We have summer vacation
April 30 is Penelope's birthday, so she is 16 now.
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RomanceDealing with depression is hard, but what's harder is the people around you don't notice and play it off as you are lazy. 15 year old, Hazel had been dealing with depression, anxiety, and self-harm. Life had gone downhill ever since her father had...
