Cruel love

Chapter 34 Barbara

I was shocked, it would be an understatement to describe how I am feeling listening to Arkadi's story.
He was my father and my mother's love. How I am supposed to deal with that revelation.

When my vitals were going crazy the doctor rushed in and threw everyone out. Thank God for making him do it, because I need some time to process everything. I need alone time to think.
The doctor told me to rest and not take rest. But how could I not. I asked him to give me a high dose of sleeping pills. Maybe I need to rest my brain because if I don't I am pretty sure my nerves will burst.

After that I don't know how many hours of sleep I took. But when I woke up I had a clear head to think about everything.
I thought about everything and I had made my decision but first I needed to talk to Arkadi.

I asked the nurse to call ONLY Arkadi. Only being the power word.

When 'only' Arkadi entered. I asked him to sit on the chair beside me.
I could feel Enzo's stair burning through the window. I didn't have the strength to meet his gaze for now.

I focused all my attention on the mansion who is apparently my father. "Why did you come for me now? You clearly didn't care about me for the last eighteen years".
"That's not true, Me and Kiara decided to be together after we got to know about the pregnancy. She decided to end her marriage with Robert and I decided to give up my Bratva boss position for her, for you".

My eyes soften towards him a little.
" But Robert had an accident, a horrific one. He could have been saved from it, if Kiara was in the house that night but she was with me. When she got to know about it she rushed to the hospital I was with her. The doctor told her someone hit him by the car and ran away in front of their house's driveway. If he was brought before we could have saved him easily but for now he has lost a lot of blood, his condition is critical but we will try our best.

She couldn't take it, she cried a lot. I held her. She said she is responsible for his late admission in the hospital. If something happened to him she would be unable to live, she would have the blood of her husband on her hands".

"You came for me now, but why, why didn't you reach for me way before when she died?"

"I wanted to but this mafia life is not good for any woman, also I didn't know how I would claim a bastard child of 11 years suddenly. I was scared. Robert worked for the mafia but he was not in it. He was not holding any position in it.
But I always kept an eye on you from afar. When I got to know Robert gave you to Enzo, I got furious, I was keeping you safe from this world and he gave you to the devil himself. I tried to take you out of the mansion by attacking it. I even killed Robert and made you believe it was Enzo who did it and helped you escape this life. But when I know you are back I was thinking about ways to take you out of Enzo's reach. But I didn't have to do anything, everything happened on its own".

I looked at him, I was feeling a little surprised but I understood his feelings. The Mafia is not a world for women. It has always been a man's world and would probably continue to be like it.

He continued talking after a long pause from both of us.
"I know I have not been a father to you and I don't expect you to accept me now as it is. But I want you to consider what I did, I did to keep you safe. You are my daughter, my only child and that is the truth".

I don't know what to say. I was speechless.

"I might be your daughter but what now?"
"I would love for you to come with me. There are so many years I need to catch up for. I was stupid Barbara to let you go in the first place. I should have fought for you then. I can't change the past, but I wanted to make up for it".
An apologetic smile curved to his face.

My face is also curved in a smile. I placed my hand over his and squeezed it a little.
"Okay Arkadi".
I can't refer to him as a father or dad. It is too weird, beside that I gave that place to Robert. His lips curled into a small genuine smile.
"I have a younger brother and sister. I would bring them with me".
"My gates are open for three of you", he said with a snorted laugh.
That made my lips curl in a smile too.

I rested for the rest of the day. I didn't meet anyone.
The next day I was discharged I went out with Arkadi and his men.
I could feel Enzo shocked the gaze on me. He must have felt that I had betrayed him. But I made the decision for his best only. He can't be with the daughter of his biggest enemy. Bratva and the Italian Mafia are enemies. Me and Enzo can't be together. They won't let us live together.
We had to live apart. This fate won't let us live together, not in this life maybe in another life.