Midnight love {Nika Muhl}

Part 27

Violet Montgomery

"You said you guys were taking things slow. How is inviting her to come home with you for Thanksgiving slow?" Azzi said very clearly confused. "I felt bad I was telling her about what my family does. And she was like oh I don't go home for thanksgiving it's to short and they don't celebrate it in Croatia." I said the panic evident in my voice.

"How am I supposed to tell her az. Oh hey my family's super homophobic just a heads up! Like what no." I said my nerves setting in. "Maybe this could be a good time too. You know." Azzi said raising her eye brows at me.

"No way." I said immediately shutting her down. My mom would never speak to me again. I remember when I first told her about Austin how she told me I was following what the lord intended. That I was accepting forgiveness for my previous sins and god sent me a man who would lead me away from temptation.

I remember what it felt like when me and Austin were arguing and he brought up another girl. My mother flipped. I don't think I've ever been slapped across my face so hard. She told me I was disobeying the lord and she could not have a daughter who disobeyed the lord.

What was I supposed to do with out a mom? Who would I be with out my mother? My parents? My family? Who was I supposed to call on the weekends? Who was supposed to walk me down the asile. Who would be there for me.

Ever since that day I have never even thought about coming out to my family ever again.

But nika. She's so sweet and so kind. She deserves a girl who doesn't hide her. Who isn't picking her family over her. She deserves to be loved with no regards. With no limitations. And how am I supposed to act normal around her. Azzi says you can tell by the way I look at her. How am I supposed to see her differently. How am I supposed to not subtly flirt every time I talk to her. How am I supposed to not touch her whenever she is near me. How am I supposed to not want her.

"Just talk to her vi." Azzi said breaking me away from my spiraling train of thought. I nodded my head knowing that Azzi was right but I'm not sure what nikas gonna say. We just got to a good point in our relationship we're both comfortable and happy.

After I finished my conversation with Azzi I head back to her shared dorm with her to talk to nika. I walked into nikas room to find her laying in her bed hard at work studying. When I opened the door she slammed her book shut and let out a loud groan. "You saved me from my math homework. You're the best you know that right." She said lying back against her pillows.

I just laughed knowing she's gonna have to do it at some point. I walked over to her bed throwing myself down next to her and leaning into her chest. "What's wrong lijepa. Bad work out." She said referring to the fact that me and Azzi were at the gym before this.

I shook my head against her chest not wanting to have the conversation I know I needed to. "Come on baby tell me." She said tipping my chin up so I was looking into her beautiful dark brown eyes.

I sat up letting out a deep huff. I took a pause and nika nodded her head for me to talk.

"I just thought I should tell you more about my family before we go." I said trying to ease my way in to the subject. Like walking into a cold pool instead of just plunging in. She nodded her head urging me to continue on. "Well my family lives in Wyoming. I grew up in Cheyenne but now they live in Jackson. It's much fancier. And prettier. My dad's a lawyer and my moms always just stayed at home. My parents are super religious. I learned Latin just so I could read the Bible. I went to a private church school. And yea. I have 3 older sisters. Vivian is married to mark and they have a baby Mila. Valerie is married to James and they have a cat. And Victoria is married to Victor and they have a son named Vance." I said listing off my sisters.

"Your family and there V's." Nika said causing me to laugh lightly. "When we go we'll stay at my parents house but in the guest house. No cursing in the house. No saying the lords name in vain. No phones at dinner. No shoes in the house. Company never helps clean. And my father is the man of the house. So what he says goes." I said trying to get nika to understand without blatantly saying it.

"And I um when we're there they can't know we're together. I-I'm not out to my family. I was gonna wait until the end of college. Because I know once I tell them all be all on my own." I said feeling the ever reoccurring tears begin to well in my eyes. Nika nodded her head. That was all she did for a long moment.

She pulled me against her chest once she saw the tears that began to trickle down my cheeks. As I nuzzled my face against her neck I heard her speak ever so softly. "You'll never be all on your own ever again. I'm here vi. And I'm not going anywhere." Hearing her say those words lifted such a weight off my shoulders.

"Oh and I know that you don't like when other people talk down to me. But if my dad ever does. Please don't do anything. It's not worth it." I said this knowing part of the reason I stayed with Austin for so long was because I had received some of the things from my dad already.

Nika just nodded her head. And pulled me closer to her. Gently stroking my hair and playing with it. I silently hope that it wouldn't get tangled as I have been wearing it naturally much more often now.

Now that I knew nika liked it.