My Dearest Enemy - GeminiFourth AU

27. You should accept yourself

«No, this isn't happening. No, not history repeating itself. I can't lose my little girl or little boy a second time. Please don't do this to me» Gemini thought as he paced back and forth in the Institute hallway before entering the infirmary.

“Big G, stop! You're walking around completely pointlessly, it's irritating,” P'Dunk scolded his brother, shaking his head.

“If you were in my situation, you'd be nervous too, I don't want anything to happen to them”.

“So you admit that you care about my cousin?” First Kanaphan joined the conversation, smiling as if he knew everything and was happy about it. Gemini gave him a dirty look. He didn't like the fact that First had followed Dunk here, with whom he had recently been practicing horse riding.  Even before "that incident", Fourth had also taken these lessons with them, and Gemini had just watched their actions with an offended prince charming's face and occasionally let out an irritated snort.

“Nonsense. I just... I just don't want anything to happen to my little girl, that's all”.

Gemini's dreams and flashbacks from the past made him think a lot about the little girl that lost her life. In his memories she was only 3 y.o. and he was afraid that history will repeat. The vision of the funeral was still very fresh as if it happened just yesterday not 100 years ago. He desperately needed answers.

«Just let them be safe, if any god exists, please, let them both be safe» He thought.

“You accepted it easily, I'm happy with that,” Phuwin also didn't intend to let it go. He remembered too well the times when Gemini criticized and ridiculed every gay, and every man in general who even looked a little gay, and now, when he himself was about to become the father of another boy's child, he suddenly changed his attitude completely. This change had already caused a lot of gossip in the Institute.

Dunk and Phuwin exchanged a look, from which Gemini realized that he and Fourth must have been the topic of conversation between the two of them. He also noticed something else: that Dunk was leaning against Phuwin, sitting on a not-so-comfortable chair, his hand on his shoulder.

“Huh? What are you insinuating?”

“Nothing, I'm just happy”.

“Happy? What are you happy about? The fate of my family is at stake here, and you're happy? Are you crazy?”

My family.

He said ‘my family’. Up until then he didn't quite understand it. He was going to have a family. The boy who was never loved, who couldn't tell the diffrence between love and lust, now was about to create his own family(even if against his own will at first) and suddenly it turns out he may lose it.

At this, Dunk and Phuwin laughed in unison, as if they could read each other's minds. Gemini felt offended by their behavior. He expected them to be more supportive for him and they disappointed him. When they stopped laughing, Phuwin explained the reason for their joy.

“We're glad you're starting to accept yourself as you are, that you're no longer running away from it. You were so obnoxious and just plain annoying when you were so adamant about being straight”.

“But I'm straight!”

“Sure, then Fourth is a woman! I don't know, but the last time I talked to him, he clearly considered himself a man, so... You know that, right? After everything what happened and what you have done yourself, you still believe that you are straight?”Dunk wouldn't leave his brother alone.

Gemini, hearing this, realized that Dunk had clearly forgotten what he had once told him about the woman from his memories. He preferred not to get into unnecessary discussions now. He almost said: “But in the past Fourth was a woman! His name was Susanne! I still see Susanne sometimes! I do it for her!”