My Dearest Enemy - GeminiFourth AU

16. I can give you a child...

“Technically I'm single.
But my heart is taken
By someone I can't call my own”.

Fourth saw that Gem hadn't even finished eating his very late breakfast, which was quite unusual for a grumpy guy like him.

“Are you ok?” Nattawat asked, looking closely at his recent maybe-not-enemy.

“Mhm... I'm fine. Why do you care even? It's not your business, it shouldn't concern you”.

«Yeah, but I'm worried, can't you see?» Nattawat thought but didn't say a word. Just at morning Norawit was so nice to him and now what? The worst thing was that they weren't allowed to tell anyone about their mission. It was first this huge mission, first official one, it should excite them but instead they didn't want to do it. Especially Gemini. Even at the thought about the task awaiting for him he felt sick. He couldn't eat much.

His stomach was in knots with nervousness.  The constant memories of Gasly scanning him and the messages he received from him weren't helping at all.  Pierre was handsome and masculine, but Gemini didn't want to lower himself to the same role again as when he was just entering the world of modeling.  He was very young then, inexperienced, innocent and naive.  Moreover, he urgently needed money, and this was the best way.  In return, he received an apartment in a warm, comfortable house with a separate bathroom, a separate kitchen space and a room for Dunk.  This convinced Gem to take up this challenge.
Today they asked house elves to bring them breakfast to their room, because after last night Nattawat slept for very long time and Norawit didn't wanted to wake him up. He only called P'Earth and explained to him that both of them can't attend today's classes.

“I'm not a damn man whore!”  Norawit burst out in anger, knocking his breakfast off the table and onto the floor with his hand.  The uneaten rice and omelette scattered around him, the spoon falling with a soft clang, but Fourth could have sworn he heard something else: the sound of his roommate's heart breaking.  “When will they finally realize that I am human too?!  I HAVE FEELINGS TOO!!!”

The last sentence he screamed out very loud. Fourth looked at their still open windows with fear. Someone might hear them. He didn't know much what to do. He wanted to come closer and just hug Norawit, but at the same time he remembered all the bad things Gemini did to others, all the times, when he kicked him, slapped him in the face, when he made fun of the fact that Nattawat was very quiet kiddo.

Fourth was afraid that Gem will push him away again.

He gathered all the courage he had and covered Norawit's hand with his own.  Norawit flinched as a familiar chill ran through his body.  Fourth had always had that effect on him, and that was another reason why Gem tried to keep some distance between them.  The memory of his own dream came before his eyes again: he saw in front of him a beautiful, young woman in a long, this time light brown, simple dress.  In this memory, she was cooking dinner in a very big old-fashioned kitchen and Gemini, whose name was Thomas at the time, came up behind her, hugged her and wrapped his arms around her waist while kissing her on the back of her neck.  The woman tilted her head to the side, laughed briefly, and a moment later she scooped some soup into a spoon, blew it to cool it down a bit, and then handed it to Thomas to taste.

“I have to protect you, my Susanne, I can't lose you again.  I can't bear it if we get separated again.  I will do it, I will do it for you, Sussie.”  Gemini whispered, lost in his memories, while looking into Nattawat's eyes and mechanically, as if without his conscious awareness, squeezing Fourth's hand even tighter.

“Wait... How did you called me?”

“Susanne... In my memories you have different name, you are Sussie. Oh! I'm sorry Fourth! Please, forget it! I'm speaking nonsense, I didn't get enough sleep and now I can't eat, weird thoughts come to my mind. Forget it, it's nothing important”.