Professor

33 | Meeting her

narration starts from the day Vikram proposed Harini  in the bus.

~~~~~~~~~~~Vikram~~~~~~~~~~

I tried as much as possible and many ways to avoid Harini. But it was impossible. It was easy with Saveri to divert my attention to something else, though it was difficult initially. 

But with Harini it was different. The more and more I tried to avoid her, the more she came closer to me. The more I unknowingly out of my control, started flirting with her. 

Over a period of time, it was Harini who was occupied in my mind and Heart. Attending Saveri's wedding with my best friend would be an heartbreaking moment is what I thought.

But to my surprise, I did not even have a hint of sadness on seeing her getting married . I enjoyed her wedding. I cannot erase the fact that Saveri is my one side love. But I want to move on. I don't want to delve on something that is not meant for me. 

May be I started having feelings for Harini as she resembled few of Saveri's character. But they both are different. I don't want to compare Harini with anyone. 

Its just once Harini saw me with Saveri and she could easily figure out that I have liking towards Saveri. Even more surprising , she also found out that I might have had breakup with her. How could Harini easily read my mind. 

Whereas my bestfriend, not even once looked at me that way or had a doubt with the way I behave with her.  May be I did not qualify to capture her heart. She did not develop feelings for me as I had for her. Possibilities are that, she friendzoned me intentionally without hurting my feelings.

 Many times I have wondered what I did not have, which Vijay have, for her to fall in love with him. The more and more I thought about it, the more inferioirty complex I developed. I wanted to stop that and diverted my attention to some thing else. 

I also pondered over one thing. The way I behave with Harini, I have never behaved the same way with Saveri , though she is my best friend. I don't remember flirting with her.  The small touches that I had with Harini that evoked different feelings in me, did not raise with Saveri. 

The physical attraction , the magnetic pull that I have with Harini was not there with Saveri. On the other hand, Saveri is matured when compared to Harini , even in our college days.  Pcch.. let me first stop comparing them. I don't even want to do that. Harini is unique in her own way and so do Saveri. 

Now that Saveri is the wife of my best friend, I don't want to think more about my one side lover for her earlier. I want to move on. 

 My proposal in bus to Harini was unexpected of myself. It was an instant decision that I took that day in the bus. 

I actually wanted to travel along with her to just talk. I don't want to wait till Harini completes her Studies to propose her. I don't want to lose her just like how I did for Saveri. I wanted to propose Saveri during her birthday or after we complete our studies. But it at all went different way.

Not wanting to take that risk, I decided to let Harini know about my feelings. 

Tomorrow my parents and bro are coming here to Bangalore on a vacation. While Neeraja manni is at her parents house, as she cannot travel during pregnancy. 

Next day

I made my mom stay at Reshma's flat along with Reshma while the men stayed with me and Adhi in our room. How much ever my parents are jovial, if they come to know about live in relationship, co-living , these all are big no for them.  Saveri and Vijay have taken a house for rent in other location as they are married now.