Professor

50 | Difference

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~~~~~~~~~~Harini~~~~~~~~~~

Its been a week since we are married. Vikram Sir talks casually with everyone , even with me as well. But I feel a difference.

Precisely , I stared to note that after our private talk in the temple on the first day at his house. 

flashback ~~~

We prayed to all the deities and sat near a pillar. 

"chellam.. are you still angry at me?" I asked with petrified look at him, whose gaze was fixed straight on the wall.

"why??" he looked at me with small smile.

My eyes started to glisten. 

"I ..I am sorry.. I played around with you"

"I know" he replied after few minutes and turned his gaze back to the wall in front of us.

"I mean.. what I said on the first night.. that was also a prank" I spoke with afraid tone , with the way he was seated.

He looked at me again. I bent my head in shame and tried to curb my tears.

"What do you mean?" he asked. I sensed his voice becoming strict.

"I ..I thought .. I .." I started crying.

"pcch. Harini.. don't cry here. It is temple. Now tell me what you want to say" he warned me with strict voice looking here and there and then back at me. 

"I.. I lied to you "

"out of so many days, which one precisely?" he asked with words coming as a sharp knife pricking my heart. This is the first time I am seeing him to be real serious. Earlier whatever seriousness I had seen about him was way more better than how he looks and behaves now.

"Chellam.. don't talk like that please" I pleaded.

He did not reply anything and turned to the other side.

"yesterday.. Yesterday night when you we were talking"

"ohh.. wrong Harini.. that was the day you spoke the truth. Truth about your feelings and what you think about me" 

My heart thudded faster. I felt very ashamed, guilt, embarrassment, felt like crying heavily everything all at once. 

"I only told half of the truth"

"which is truth and which is lie? can you please distinguish Harini? Because I am very  bad in identifying your truth and lies"

Vikram Sir was talking very , very politely with a normal face. But his words were very sharp that could cut my heart in to 8 pieces. 

With the way he was sitting and talking with me, with his face reaction, no one would believe that he is angry at me. But he is really angry.. Or should I say hurt? Ya that is the one. 

"The truth is , I was afraid of first night and I used that situation to prank you.. But the lie is me saying ' I did not love you'"

He did not look at me nor answer my question. I continued.

"Actually, I was confused when you proposed me. I was afraid as well. I did not know whether I was having love or infatuation towards you. But I liked it when you proposed me. Yet at the same time does not want to fall in love without my parents knowledge.  I was very much afraid of what would happen if they come to know. I wanted to say yes but at the same time no. Luckily,  I got your marriage proposal from your parents and I did not have any hesitation to fall in love with you. The only hindrance that I had to fall in love with you was not there anymore , so I embraced it. But as the days went by, I started falling for you more. I.. I really love you..  . I lied yesterday about this to see your reaction"