Professor

54 | Frustration

Narration starts from Vikram left to Australia.

Yet to proof read. Kindly bear the mistakes.

~~~~~~~~~~Harini ~~~~~~~~~~

I feel totally lost and irritated with everything that is happening around me. I made lot of mistakes. The lies that I tell fluently had made me face this situation. 

Vikram Sir already sent me lot of messages and even asked me to meet me at the bus stop to talk with me. I was the stupid who did not listen to him.

He even sent me multiple voice recordings but I did not look at any of them. I locked myself in to a room to listen to what he was saying in those recordings.

Recording 1: Harini.. I tried reaching you and made efforts to talk with you. But you are always avoiding me. I am planning to go study in Australia for a 2 year course. This is not a decision that I have taken after this fight. It was there in my plan for a longer time and I even applied for it long time back. But did not get any response. I was about to get promotion as well in Office and I thought to go with that flow rather than studying. But on the day of our wedding, I received this admission offer. I wanted to say this to you on first night as a surprise, but things turned out different.

Recording 2:  I think this break is definitely needed for us. Hence I decided to go with studying and informed HOD as well the immediate next day. She wanted me to talk about it after I join the college and did not accept it. But I persuaded her and forbid her from saying anything to other staffs as well for the time being , especially to Adhi. 

Recording 3: I have also informed HOD to not reveal about me and you marrying to anyone in College as I will be leaving now. If at all you reveal that you are married, I know for sure that you will not tell it is me whom you married. So just go with the same .

Recording 4: I have not yet informed about my decision to anyone in our house nor your house. Don't reveal any of it to anyone until I say. 

Recording 5: Don't feel guilty Harini. I am not taking this decision because of what happened in our marriage , as I said earlier. I heard you secluding yourself from everyone and not eating properly. Don't do that Harini. Your actions hurt me more. 

I did not listen to any of those recordings at that time. Had I listened, I could have done something about it.

I found another recording sent on his farewell day.

Recording 6: Harini .. I know you would not wait for me there in our usual place. And as expected, you did not turn up. Why did you run away in the middle in farewell party? Talk with me Harini. Don't punish yourself. It makes me even more guilty . Please talk with me.

on the day of his departure to Australia.

Recording 7 : loosu Harini. why do you want to remove the thali  which I tied?   If you really had at least a small amount of love for me these days, have it still on you until I come. Once I am back, if you still want to remove that then I will do.

He dialed me many times and I did not pick up any.

Recording 8 : Since you are not picking up my call, until you talk with me I won't talk with you nor make any calls for you. waiting for your call eagerly. 

Listening to those recording I cried heavily. I must have at least talked with him peacefully. I always keeps repeating the mistake making it even more worse. Days went with me always in sorrowful state. 

My parents tried to talk with me and bring back to normal. But I always isolated myself from everyone and did not talk well with them. My brother offered to drop me in the bus stop. But I denied going with him and went in cycle to the bus stand and parked it there.