TOXIC (Elizabeth Olsen x G!P OC)

Chp 12. Wrote a Song

"No, no, I'm sorry!" Lizzie giggled as I tickled her, her angelic laugh and I sighed and pulled away and she took deep breaths.

"I don't even wanna show you anymore," I said while crossing my arms over my chest and she giggled.

"I wasn't laughing at you!" She said but I gave her a look and she giggled, and I huffed.

I had written a song for her and I wanted to show her but she started laughing and I didn't know why, I was really nervous to show her this song but it was about her and how she made me feel.

"Then what were you laughing at? I said nothing funny."

She looked around the room while biting her lip and I narrowed my eyes at her and she coughed, I'm assuming to cover her laugh.

"Okay, I just remembered something funny that's all, I wasn't laughing at you, I promise," I grumbled and she smiled, leaning over to kiss me and I smiled, I had gotten so accustomed to the feeling of her lips on mine I didn't know how I would survive tour without her. "Now you can show me."

"I don't wanna," I said stubbornly and she smiled kissing my cheek, she sat down on my lap and I put my arm around her waist to hold her up, and she put her hand on the back of my neck playing with my baby hairs, and kissed my jaw.

"Pleaseee?" She asked and I couldn't help but chuckle, and she continued peppering kisses on my face and I caved.

Not that I wouldn't show her but I loved having her lips on me so it was easy to persuade me.

"Okay, okay, but if you laugh I'm gonna be very upset," I said while pointing my finger at her and she tried to bite me and I scoffed and she giggled, and I squeezed her hip. "I'm serious!"

She then nodded and put on a serious face. "Okay, okay, I won't laugh I promise."

"You better not," I said and she put her hand over her heart, and I smiled. "And look you said you wanted to hear my unreleased music and this song is unreleased and just for you," I told her while pressing a kiss on her cheek and her cheeks flushed. I wheeled us over to my computer, going to the file that had the song, I hesitated for a second before I pressed play on the song and the song started to play through the speakers.

"I ask myself, "Is this shit real?"
I contemplate 'bout how I feel
But you make it way too hard to think
That this could be what true love is"

I watched her face to see her reaction and I watched as a smile spread across her lips, and I felt my nerves ease up just a little bit.

"I don't want wait another minute for ya
Oh, you got me falling from the ceiling for ya
Knew right from the start there was no limit to ya
And I'm catching feelings, baby"

I felt her fingers playing with the baby hairs on my neck and that calmed me more than anything, I laid my head on her chest feeling so immensely calm in this moment.

"You give me feels and I
Know that it, know that it, know that it's real
You give me, you give me feels
You give me feels and I
Know that it, know that it, know that it's real
You give me, you give me feels"

I wrote this song after we went out for our second date, we had a simple date we cooked some pasta which ended up in a flour fight and that ended with us getting naked and having sex in her kitchen, and we just ordered some Chinese takeout after cleaning up, best date ever in my opinion.

But that was why I wrote the song, after that night I realized I had really fallen for her, or at least knew that my feelings for her were well.. real.

"It took a lot of hard shit just to learn
How not to break down and stop, baby
No matter what I seen in the past
I won't let it impact how we grow now, baby
I can't let it slip away or drift away
Can't go to waste, go to waste, uh
I say it straight, straight to your face
Won't contemplate, yeah, contemplate that, baby"

I didn't want this to go to waste or let her go to waste, and I knew all of this shit was fucked up, I had a girlfriend and I was catching feelings for someone else.

But Lexi and I were basically through at this point so I wasn't really hurting anyone.

"I don't want wait another minute for ya (No, no)
Oh, you got me falling from
The ceiling for ya (Oh, yeah)
Knew right from the start
There was no limit for me
And I'm catching feelings, baby"

I honestly didn't expect to catch feelings for Lizzie but how could I not? She was amazing, she was kind, beautiful selfless, and just an amazing person overall.

Something I was not.

And that kinda put me off of her, I know how terrible I've been to Lexi, and what if I got together with Lizzie and did the same thing? The cheating, the lying, the manipulating, and all the bullshit. I didn't want to hurt her, but I knew deep down I already was even if she didn't know it, I did, I was hurting two people at the same time and only one of them knew.

"Jordan." I blinked and lifted my head to look at Lizzie realizing that the song had finished.

I cleared my throat, and put a smile on my face. "Did you like it?" I asked, nervous for her answer.

"I loved it, it was a great song." She said and I let out a breath of relief. "I can't believe you would write that for me."

"I wrote a good song for an amazing woman," I said while bringing my hand up to move some of her hair behind her ear then holding her face in my hand my thumb rubbing over her cheek, seeing a coat of red full her cheeks at my words.

She pressed her lips to mine and I smiled, adjusting my hand around her waist as she slowly broke the kiss after pressing soft kisses on my lips, she brought her finger up to my lip rubbing her thumb over it and I stared at her lips before looking her in the eyes.

"For your party tonight is it okay if I bring my friends? Their in town and I don't know I thought it would be a good opportunity for you to meet them and you can-"

I cut off her nervous rant by biting her thumb and she grunted I chuckled softly, and she narrowed her eyes at me.

"You can bring them, I would love to meet them," I said and her eyes searched mine, almost to check if I was being honest or not.

"You're sure?"

"100%," I answered and she smiled kissing me again, and I held her securely, one thing clear in my mind.

I needed to end things with Lexi.

Yall gonna love the next chap 😝