TOXIC (Elizabeth Olsen x G!P OC)

Chp 22. Friends is Good

"Shhh baby shh." I shushed Royalty as she cried in my arms, and I was trying to make her a bottle, it was my first time watching her on my own since Lexi was in therapy- cause of me and I still felt like absolute shit for that, Jared was spending time with his baby girl and I was spending time with mine.

I was still adjusting my life to be her parent- or just parent in general and I was getting the hang of it.. I'm still not sure, there were some moments when all I wanted to do was run.. leave everything, and just go but every time I thought that I thought of my baby girl, and all of those thoughts were gone, and replaced by her.

I loved her so much and I still found it so crazy how I didn't want kids in the first place but now with her, I was okay with it.

I opened the door to the microwave and pulled out her bottle, shutting the door and pouring some of the milk on my arm to make sure it wasn't too hot, and when I knew it wasn't I put it in her mouth and immediately her cries stopped and I breathed out a sigh of relief.

I had to find myself something to eat I hadn't eaten since this morning and it was almost midnight, I would just order something, I went back in the living room and sat down on the couch grabbing my phone and balancing Royalty's bottle on my chin so I could order a pizza.

When I got the order in, I took the bottle back in my hand and looked down at Ro as she drunk it, a smile etching itself on my face she had me smiling all the time now, just holding her in my arms or seeing her made me smile.

When she had finished her bottle, I started to burp her, and she let out a belch I laid her on the couch in between my legs, and she stared up at me, her tiny arms moving and I chuckled my thumb rubbing her stomach, and she started to look around.

"Wake me up before you go, oh I need a little more of your love." I sang and she looked at me and smiled and I smiled at her smile. I had written a song for her, it was a bit crazy how much she inspired me and she hadn't even been in my life that long, but I wanted to be better for her.

First I wanted to be better for Lizzie, then that went to shit, so now I was being better for Royalty.

"So before I go to work, can I ask you a favor? Wake me up before you go
Ooh, I need a little more, just a little more of your love."

She smiled and babbled and I laughed, my cheeks hurt from smiling so hard. She loved when I sang to her, and I was happy to do it anytime. I took her in my arms when there was a knock at the door adjusted my shorts and went to answer the door.

I opened the door expecting to see a woman or man delivering a pizza but instead, Lizzie was there. I was surprised to see her and she looked at Royalty in my arms and then at me, we stood in silence and I bit my lip and sighed.

"Hey, Liz," I said and she looked at Royalty again then at me.

"Hey, Jordan."

I adjusted Royalty on my arm. "How you been?" I asked so we wouldn't be in awkward silence.

"I'm good." She said and I nodded, and the silence came again. "I'm sorry, how are you? How have you been?"

"I'm good, doing good," I answered and she kept looking at Royalty and I looked between the two. "Sorry, Lizzie this is Royalty, my daughter," I said and she smiled I smiled seeing her smile, I hadn't seen it in so long I was starting to forget what it looked like.

"She's so beautiful, Jordan." She said and I smiled with pride.

"She gets it from me." Lizzie just raised her eyebrow, and I scoffed. "Hater," I mumbled and she let out a light chuckle. "So what're ya doing here?" I asked her after a second and she bit her lip.

"I was thinking about you and I just wanted to see you." She said and I took in a breath. "But I see you're busy so I'll just go."

"You don't have to go," I told her not wanting her gone so fast after she just got here. I could use some company to be real.

"You're with your daughter." She pointed out and I looked at Ro.

"Ro, don't mind do you baby?" She just babbled and I looked at Lizzie. "She said she doesn't so now you gotta come in she said so." She chuckled and asked if I was sure once more and I told her to come inside.

Before we even got settled there was another knock on the door and I knew this time it was my pizza, and I opened the door to get it, I had already paid for it so I took it to the living room and Lizzie followed me. I put the box on the table and laid Ro on the floor with me in between my legs and Lizzie sat on the couch.

"Do you want some?" I asked her gesturing to the pizza and she declined. "Do you want a drink? I can get you something, a snack?" She just declined again, and I knew she was being polite, I gave her the TV remote and told her to pick a movie.

Ro started to fuss after a while and I put down my pizza crust picked her up, and bounced her lightly in my arms. "So why you really here?" I asked Lizzie as I stood up to put Ro in her swing, and she looked at me with furrowed brows.

"I told you, I was thinking about you and I wanted to see you."

"Mhm." I hummed and her head tilted slightly.

"You think I'm lying?"

I shook my head. "No, I don't, but it's been so long and I'm just trying to figure out why now you show up," I said. "And I don't want you to go, just wondering," I added quickly. She nodded again, and we were in silence again, both of us watching Ro who was slowly drifting off to sleep her eyes opening and closing, I looked over at Lizzie, she looked good though I was sure she would never not. "I missed you," I told her and she looked away from Ro and at me.

I wouldn't be upset if she denied me if I tried to take her out, but I did miss her and I wanted her back, we weren't together for long but even in that time, she inspired me to be better.

"Jordan.." She started and from her tone, I knew whatever she would say wasn't gonna be good.

"Look, I know that you probably don't trust me but I would like a chance to build that again. I want you and I know I should've been clear with you from the jump about what happened but I could never bring myself to do it and I did then you left. And I want a second chance."

I knew I could do her right if she gave me the chance, I just needed another chance. I hadn't even been with anyone since she had left me, so many long nights most of them spent alone or with Ro.

It felt like I was saving myself for someone and I didn't know if she wanted me, or not.

"Jordan. You have a daughter."

"I know that, and I love her but that wouldn't stop me from trying to build something with you." I didn't want to pressure her but I needed to know if I should keep waiting on her- not that she told me to wait for her but I did.

"I don't know." She finally said and I deflated but nodded. "I'm sorry, I just don't know. We can be friends?"

"Nah, it's cool, can't expect too much after what happened last time. Friends is good." I mumbled and looked back at Ro, who was asleep. "I should get her into bed," I said standing from the couch and she did the same.

"And I should go, it's getting late." I just nodded, I would walk her out, then take Ro up to my room, when she opened the door a frown fell on my face.

My eyes widening. "Mama!" My dad was standing behind her but neither looked happy.

"Why didn't you tell us we had a granddaughter?!" My mother asked- more like demanded and I sighed, this is not what I wanted.