TOXIC (Elizabeth Olsen x G!P OC)

Chp 13. Lizzie Doesn't Know. Lexi Probably Knows.

"Are you ready?" Mike asked me and I just stared at him, he had been asking me this question all day, and every time my answer was the same, I was ready he was more stressed over this album release party than I was.

"I'm not answering that because I have been all day, so can you come on?" I pushed him out the door and locked it behind him and I went and got in the car that was gonna drive me to the party, Mike wasn't coming but he made sure I was ready.

We said our goodbyes and the driver stopped to pick up Jared and some of the yes men and we had a little pregame in the car.

"Wait a minute, your girl is coming?" Jared asked me as we downed our shots and I nodded.

"Yep, and she bringing some of her friends."

"Damn, aight, I ain't know you fixed shit with Lexi." He said and my brows furrowed and then he looked confused. "Lexi is your girl right?"

"She my girl, yeah, but she not my girl at the same time. I was talkin' bout Liz, she comin'." He blinked a few times, already pouring another shot.

"Bitch what? I'm confused."

I rolled my eyes. "Ima break up with Lexi and get with Lizzie." He made an 'oh' face and I shook my head.

"You shoulda been broke up with her, to be honest." He said while drinking his drink and I stared at him for a second. "What? You know I'm right, I doubt you even love her anyway." He said and here came the yes men to agree with what he said and I mugged them all.

"I love her," I said, convincing them or me? I don't know. One of the yes men chuckled and I turned to him and he stopped laughing but I narrowed my eyes at him. "What's funny?" He just shook his head. "No, something was funny so I wanna know, I like to laugh."

He gulped and looked at everyone else but they were staring at something else besides Jared who was chuckling.

"W-I mean Jared's right. Y-you treat her like shit.. you can't love her and do that to her." He stuttered and I just frowned. "It's not right." He added and I bit my lip.

I loved Lexi. I did.

I loved her and we fell apart.. we fell apart because I fucked up. I fucked us up. She was perfect and I fucked up. And so many times I did, so many times when I needed to be there for her and I was anywhere but home with her.

I was a piece of shit, but I was gonna break up with her and then she wouldn't be sad anymore, she could find someone to make her happy and love her right, and that's all I wanted for her was to be happy.

And I realized a long time ago she would never be happy with me but I held on because I.. I didn't want to be alone.. maybe I didn't love her, maybe I just kept her around to have someone.

I shook my head and told Jared to pour me a shot, I didn't need to make myself sad I was supposed to be excited tonight was a night to celebrate and that's what I was gonna do.

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"That's a lot of people," I mumbled to myself as we pulled up to the club where the party was, there was a line of people outside that wrapped around the building, and sighed.

The driver pulled up to the front of the club and got out to open the door for us immediately the shouting started and I took a deep breath as I stepped out of the car smiling as I looked at everyone, the guys followed behind me as we made our way inside and once again there was a yell of people screaming my name.

I was ushered inside by security before making my way up to the DJ booth dapping him up and he gave me a microphone.

"Wassup, y'all!" I said into the mic and grimaced when they all yelled back at me. I didn't want to do this dumbass speech anyway but I had to. "First of all I wanna thank y'all for coming out tonight, it means a lot and I appreciate y'all more than you'd ever know, thank you! And second, enjoy the party!" I braced myself for the yell this time so I just smiled gave the DJ back the mic and stepped down.

I needed a drink. The DJ started to play some of my music, and I recognized the song immediately as the song I did with Wale: On Chill.

I found it funny that he played this song when it showed how I was feeling at the moment.

"We've been on a tragedy for months
Why can't you agree with me for once?
Maybe we can be on chill tonight
Maybe I can give you chills too
We've been on a tragedy for months
Why can't you agree with me for once? (Yeah)
Maybe we can be on chill tonight (one time)
Maybe I can give you chills too (chill)"

I had so many songs written about Lexi and I couldn't even say that the majority of them were happy songs cause they weren't. Thinking back most of the songs I wrote about Lexi were either sex songs or me talking shit about our relationship.

It took me about a month or two to even come up with a love song for her but with Lizzie I made "Feels" in a night, a singular night, and the song I made for Lexi took me weeks.

I sighed and maneuvered my way to the bar to get a drink, I looked around the room looking at the people there were mostly women in here- which I was not complaining about at all.

I thanked the bartender as she gave me my drink and I pulled my phone out of my pocket seeing that I had a text from Lizzie saying that she was here with her friends, I smiled telling her I was gonna send Jared out to get her, while I wanted to go greet her I didn't want to cause an uproar if people saw me leaving out so quick.

I grabbed Jared's collar as he started to walk by and he gaged and I chuckled for a second before clearing my throat and he slapped my hand.

"The fuck?!"

"Aught, my bad, can you go get Lizzie and her friends?" He just stared at me. "Please." He rolled his eyes but said he would be back, I thanked him again and turned back to my drink.

I took a sip and felt a tap on my shoulder and I turned around, immediately spitting out my drink and choking as I saw who it was.

Lexi.

I coughed and she patted my back, and I wheezed for a second before I got myself together, looking at her with my eyes bulging out of my head.

"What? What're you doing here?" I asked her still in shock that she was even here.

"I wanted to congratulate you." She said and I chuckled nervously and scratched my neck. "And.. I think we could work this out Jordan. I mean we need a lot of therapy but we can make it work."

She hugged me and I stood there stiffly. Make it work? Make it work? We had been trying- she had been trying for so long to make it work with me, why is she still trying?

Is she playing some sort of game?

She pulled away slightly to kiss me and I didn't push her away just stood there and she pulled away, staring up at me I stared at her gobsmacked, I looked behind her and saw Lizzie and Jared.

My heart started to race and my palms got sweaty, it wasn't the good nervous I usually got when I saw her but I was terrified.

Both of my girls are in one spot, at the same time. Not one, but two. They don't know each other. Lizzie doesn't know. Lexi probably knows. Lizzie doesn't know I have a girlfriend. Lexi doesn't know I wanna break up.

I'm fucked.

Oh god.

I grabbed Lexi's hand and rushed her off in the crowd, glancing behind me to make sure Jared and Lizzie weren't following us, when I knew I was good I turned to Lexi who had a soft smile on her face, and I frowned.

What the fuck am I gonna do?