Colby Brock Imagines 2

He Got The Worst Call...

Colby's POV:

I woke up at 4 a.m. to my phone ringing. I look at the ID tiredly.

"Y/n's mom" 

My girlfriend's mom? I answered while confused.

"She's gone."

I froze.

"No, she can't be."

Not my sweet girl. I couldn't believe it.

"She took her own life."

I collapsed to my knees on the floor.

I started to cry so hard i couldn't even breathe. 

My mom came in the room. 

She held me and i cried in her arms like i was a kid again.

"It's ok. Let it all out. I know about Y/n."

She said to me as she rubbed my back.

After an hour of struggling, i finally fell asleep.

I dreamt about Y/n, but it's all gone now. She's gone now.

I'll never see her beautiful face of her y/h/c, straight hair again.

I wake up numb. 

I don't want to live anymore. Not without my baby girl.

I force myself to get out of bed and get ready.

I looked at the picture of me and Y/n on my bedside table.

My eyes start to fill with tears, i can't look at her face without crying anymore.

We'll never take anymore pictures together.

I go downstairs and my dad gives me some flowers for Y/n's family.

I drive over to Y/n's house, but her spark isn't there anymore.

Her mom opens the door, her dog jumps up at me, he'll never see his owner again.

Her mom looks like she hasn't slept.

I smile at her even though it won't bring Y/n back.

I hand her the flowers, and she hands me a letter.

"It's from Y/n."

When i got back to my car, i read the letter.

My heart breaks. i could've saved her. 

Tears started to fall onto the letter, my heart hurting.

Dear Colby,
When you're reading this, I'm already in a better place. I've been living with depression for the last couple of years but i didn't want to tell you so you wouldn't worry about me. I'm sorry that it had to end like this. But i just couldn't take the pain anymore. Don't blame yourself. None of this is your fault. i've had thi day planned. Live your life to the fullest. Even if that means moving on from me. I want you to be happy. You deserve to have a good, long life. And please, listen to zach Bryan music for me.
Take chances cause it's now or never. 
Never forget me. i'll love you forever Colbs. 

P.s. watch the sunsets for me <3

I could have saved her.

i didn't realize she was hurting.

I don't wanna move on. I don't want to live without her.

My girl.

5 days later and i'm in my room getting ready for her funeral.

I was wearing a black suit with a red tie. Red was her favorite color.

I even dyed a piece of my hair. She always had some hair dye in her hair.

I wanna cry but i try to stay strong for her.

Y/n's funeral wasn't depressing. She wanted it full of teal and red.

she was in a rustic wooden casket at the front of the church. 

She was wearing the necklaces, bracelets, and rings i gave her. 

I walk up to her casket, but it doesn't feel like Y/n.

She isn't smiling and her tan skin is pale now but either way she still looks as beautiful as ever.

It's a beautiful sunny day and Y/n gets put to rest whilst the song 'Pink Skies' by Zach Bryan played in the background.

She loves Zach Bryan.

I collapse into my dad's arms.

the pain was too much.

My sweet girl was never going to see the sunsets or listen to Zach Bryan music again.

After the ceremony, i just sit by Y/n's grave.

I'll never see her again. Only in my dreams.

I'll never forgive myself for not realizing that she was struggling.

2 weeks pass since Y/n's funeral and all i ever do is go and sit at her grave.

i take her dog with me, but he doesn't know he'll never see his Y/n again.

3 weeks pass and i don't eat or sleep. I'm not living anymore, just surviving.

Everyone's worried about me but i don't care.

i make sure my rooms clean before going to bed.

I take a look outside to see the sunset, it's just a beautiful as Y/n.

I fall asleep, except this time i don't wake up.

I get to be with my sweet girl forever now.

I get to be buried next to Y/n. We can lay at peace together. I died under a pink sky. Her favorite few and her favorite song.