Don't Go

Dont You Dare

"Crystal?" Gerald says with hope in his voice once again.
"Hi Gerald." My voice is already giving out
"How are you? Where have you been? Are you okay?" Gerald asks as he starts to ramble on before I stop him.
" can we meet somewhere? We really need to talk." I say as he sighs on the other end.
"Yeah sure. Just tell me when and where and I'll be there." He says which makes my heart beat sped up. Hearing him makes my frown instantly turn into a smile. I've missed him so much but I have to be strong and hold my ground. I can't let him get to me.
" the park right down the street from my house? In 20 minutes? Is that okay?" I ask as I grab my mirror from my bedside table and look at myself.
"That's fine. I'll be there."
"Okay see you then." I say as I end the call.
Damn I look like a fucking crackhead. I look like I haven't slept in days which is somewhat true. I havent been able to do anything except think and stare at walls.
I was gonna see G in 20 minutes. What the fuck am I gonna say. How do I even bring up the whole situation?

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I walk up to the park and sit on the slide. I haven't been here since I broke up with josh. Damn, I hope this doesn't end up as bad as it did with him.
   I hear a car coming down the silent street and park in the parking lot. I notice G open his car door and walk over to the other side of the street. God damn he looks perfect. I want to run up to him and kiss him, but I can't do that.
He looks up at me as I suck in a breathe. Every time I see him, he makes me get butterflies in my stomach. He walks up to me as he goes to say something.
" are you okay?" He says lightly
" actually I'm fucking not okay Gerald, you fucking scared me. I was scared that you were going to hurt me. You got shitfaced and I was actually fucking scared for my life."
"Crystal.. I'm sorry.."
" NO GERALD. YOU BROKE ME. I HAVENT EATEN OR SLEPT OR GONE OUTSIDE IN LIKE SIX DAYS. I WAS BROKEN AND NEEDED YOU."
" Crystal I have been trying to call you to talk to you. You never answered, and when I'd try and call Mia or Laila they told me 'this isn't a good time'. So I'm sorry. I fucked up and I'm sorry. But Crystal I've missed you so much. I haven't done anything. I rescheduled my London concerts because I couldn't deal with not having you there. Fucking shit Crystal I'm completely falling in love with you. And I know I've only known you for a little more than two weeks but I can't stand with not seeing
you. You mean so much to me and I can't live with myself knowing that you thought I could have hurt you. But I would really love for you to give me a second chance. Please baby, I'm so sorry for ..." I interrupted him by placing my lips on his. It felt like a comfort zone. His lips felt like they were made for mine. No matter what we go through and how much shit that would go down. I will always come back to him. He's just that one person I wanna be with.
G wraps his arm around me and walks me back to his car.
"Don't fuck with me again or I'll fuck you up"