What is this feeling? (Marianas Trench FanFic)

Chapter 5 New life?

"Are you sure Hun? It'll hurt more if its over scars." Kat warned me.

"I'm positive" I replied.

She took me to the back and began tattooing it. When I looked down she had the J and O finished.

"How's the pain?" Kat asked me.

"It's not that bad, I've felt much worse." I responded.

Kat kept tattooing. She asked me why I wanted someone's name tattooed on me and what my scars are from.

I told her everything. I felt like I could trust her.

The tattoo took an hour and a half to complete.

When it was all done she showed it to me. It was perfect, I loved it.

"I can't thank you enough Kat. It's amazing. I truly love it" I said to Kat with tears in my eyes.

Kat didn't reply. She gave me a hug. She also gave me a paper with her phone number on it. She told me if I ever needed anything or someone to talk to I can text or call her.

When I got home I didn't show my parents. I went to my room. I didn't pick up my blade or my guitar. I picked up my computer. Google was already opened. I typed in "rehab centres for drug addiction and self harm".

There was only one result. It was in Vancouver BC. The same on Joshua Ramsay went too. I clicked the button that said enroll me. I filled out all the info and clicked send. A few minutes later I got a phone call saying that they'd love to help and I can get started when ever.

I went to the Halifax airport website and clicked departures. There's a plan that half full leaving for Vancouver in 2 days.

I ran down the hall and grabbed the jar that said "Alli's college savings". I dumped the jar out and counted all the money inside. I have enough for a ticket to Vancouver and one home. And I'll even have money left over.

I booked my flight with no hesitation. I called the rehab centre back and told the, I'd be there in 2 days.

I started to pack. I fell asleep part way thru packing. I woke up and realized I was late for school. Oh well. It's my last day in Halifax for a while. I need to finish packing and tell my friends I'm leaving for now.

As soon as the last bell rang I saw my friends come thru the doors. I told them I was leaving in a few hours to go away for a few months. None of them wanted me to leave. I told them ill be back in a few months. They started to get emotional.

We went out for one last supper together before I left. I gave them all huge hugs before I left.

I got home and double checked that I had everything I needed. I had some time to kill so I grabbed my laptop and put on Marianas Trench's album Fix me. I listened to the whole album twice. It was almost time.

I have to be at the airport in an hour. I wrote a note that I would leave for my parents. The note read

"Mom and Dad,

Not that you really care but I'm leaving for a few months. I may be back and I may not be back."

I left the note on the table and grabbed my suitcase.

I made a quick stop at the phone company to disconnect my phone. My phone has been disconnect. Now off to the airport.

It was kind of sad at the airport. Everyone on my flight was hugging someone before it was time to board the plane. I just sat there alone.

I boarded the plane. I'm excited to get to Vancouver but I'm not excited for the 13 hrs flight.

I slept for 10 hours. I listened to Fix Me. When it ended, i put Alibis on repeat. This song described what was going on right now so well. It felt like it was my theme song right now. Maybe because it has my name in it. Maybe they will change the name to Allibis just for me.

The flight attendant said into the PA system that we just landed in Vancouver. The flight wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. When I got off the plane I went and got my suitcase.

The time change really screwed me up. I have 4 hours before I have to go to rehab. I decided that maybe I should get a cell phone I case I make any friends.

I walked by a Telus and went in and bought a blackberry. I told them I wasn't from here and they said when I go back home I can keep the phone and get it connected there.

I went to the nearest park and sat on a bench. I took out my notebook and started writing a song. I wrote 3/4 of a song.

I still had some time to kill so I just sat on the bench and watched the world go by. I noticed someone that looked familiar but I couldn't quite remember who it was.

By then it was time for me to start rehab. When I entered everyone seemed so nice. I got all signed in and they showed me my room. It was actually pretty nice.

Everyday at rehab I started feeling better and better.

They asked me to draw circle to represent everything important in my life. My smallest circle was self harm. Cocaine and music were pretty much the same size. Josh Ramsay was my biggest circle.