Josh Ramsay just kissed me on the cheek. I'm trying not to freak out. I'm feeling something inside. It's not butterflies, I've felt them before.
What is this feeling?
I stand there silently. Starring off in space thinking. Trying to figure out the feeling.
"Everything okay Alli?" Josh asks me.
I don't answer him. I just keep thinking.
That feeling. It's....it's love.
I'm in love. I'm in love with Josh Ramsay.
But does he feel the same way?
"Yeah everything's fine" I reply
I don't think he feels the same way. I'm just a fan. There's no way he'd fall in love with a fan.
~Josh's POV~
I hope everything's okay with Alli. Did I do something wrong?
I hug her again. She puts her head on my chest.
"Do you wanna go downtown again later?" I ask her.
"Sure" she says with a smile.
I got and changed while Alli makes us breakfast. I throw on skinny jeans, converse, a T-shirt and a hoodie.
"Yum! Smells good in here!" I say as I walk back into the kitchen.
She smiles. The same smile she did the first time we met.
~Alli's POV~
Josh and I eat breakfast then leave to go downtown. On the drive we put the radio and sang almost every song that came on.
Josh parks the car and comes around to open my door.
"After you my lady!" He says to me
I smile. Wait. Did Josh just call me his lady?
We begin walking towards the water. Josh grabs my hand again.
This is never going to work I thought to myself. He's never going to date a fan.
I let go of his hand and don't say a word.
"Alli? What's going on? What's wrong?" Josh asked me with a concerned look oh his face.
My eyes begin to water.
"It's just.." I can't get any other words out.
A tear runs down my face.
"It's just that I'm feeling something inside. And the feeling. It's about you. Josh, I have feelings for you. I'm just a fan, I know you down have feelings for me. I'm just a fan..."
There was silence for a moment. I begin to cry.
"You would never have feelings for someone like me. You would never have feelings for someone who self harmed or had a drug addiction...
I even attempted suicide 4 times. It almost worked the last time but I saw you messaged me on Facebook so I stopped. It's because of you I'm here today. Josh, you saved my life. I looked up to you. I knew you went to rehab and became sober. I did too because I knew if you could do it I could too.
My circles in rehab, you were the biggest one. I didn't even know you at this point. We had only ever talked on Facebook once. I moved to Vancouver to get a fresh start. I couldn't believe it was actually you at the music store. I couldn't believe you liked my singing and said I have a beautiful voice.
Josh. You saved my life."
Tears streamed down my face. Josh eyes looked watery.
He pulled me close and wiped my tears away. He hugged me. He hugged me like never before.
"Josh there's one other thing" I said looking up at him.
"What is it Al?" He asked me in a low voice.
I pulled away from him. I lifted up my shirt a bit to show him my tattoo.
A tear fell from his eye. This was the first time I've ever shown anyone my tattoo and scars.
He looked at the, for a minute. He put my shirt back down.
He looked me in the eyes with his gorgeous blue eyes and pulled me close.
He did something I never thought he would ever do....
He kissed me.
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What is this feeling? (Marianas Trench FanFic)
FanfictionI felt useless and regretted even being on earth my life was horrible. If it wasn't for it being horrible I wouldn't be we're I'm at today and I wouldn't be with who I was either. It's because of cocaine I have such an amazing life.
