What is this feeling? (Marianas Trench FanFic)

Chapter 28 A Baby?

"C'mon Al you look tired, lets head to bed" Josh says while giving me a hug. Josh left the room to change into his pyjamas. I went into the kitchen and got a cup from the dishwasher and set it on the counter. I grabbed the water pitcher from the fridge and poured some in my glass. I down the whole thing. I poured to more glasses and drank them both. I can heard Josh in the bathroom probably brushing his teeth. I go back into the bedroom and put on one of Josh's shirt. I can hear him In The bathroom probably brushing his teeth. He walks past and goes to lock the door. After I hear the lock click I hear the sound of a can opening. Josh and his coke zero addiction. Wait, who drinks something after they brush there teeth? I walk into the living room and go to the balcony. I call for Bennie and go outside with her to use the bathroom.

Josh comes out and wraps his arms around me from behind. I can feel the goosebumps on his chest through my; well his shirt. After us standing there for a few minutes trying to keep each other warm, Bennie goes and sit by the door. Josh opens the door and lets her inside. Josh and I follow behind her. I give her and the cats a quick pat before heading into the bedroom. Josh goes and shuts all the lights off then comes into the bedroom. I pull the covers down and crawl under. Josh plugs his phone into charge then crawls in bed with me.

He pulls the cover all the way up, trying to warm us up from being outside. I move closer to him and he puts his arms around me. After a few minutes we finally warm up. I let out a big yawn. "Your should probably close your eyes and try to get some sleep" Josh says as he rolls me over to face him. I give him a hug and kiss his lips. Josh rolls over so he's on his back I rest my head on his chest and he puts his arm around my waist. I fall asleep faster then I normally do.

(Alli's Dream)

"C'mon darling push on 3" the doctor says. "1,2,3 push!" I push as hard as I could till I hear crying. I look up at Josh who's crying and I start to cry. "Congrats on your baby!" The doctor says.

"Happy 1st birthday Jesse!" Myself, Josh and our friends say. Can't believe our little boys growing up this fast!

"Josh go get the camera!" I yell. "He's going to take is first steps!" I yell. Josh comes running down the stairs with a camera. And starts to film.

"Motherfucker" a male voice says. "Josh don't swear around Jesse!" I yell at him. "Huh? I didn't swear" Josh says as he pops his head in the door. Josh and I hear go downstairs to check on Jesse. "Motherfucker" Jesse says while playing with his stuffed dog. Josh and I look at each other and burst out laughing.

"Mom dad come on!" Jesse says as he jumps on our bed. "Wake up! It's my first day of school!" He says as he jumps on the bed. "Love you guys" Jesse says as he runs out the door to the school bus.

I'm in the spare room working when I hear kids playing outside. I look out the window and see Jesse holding hands with a girl. I run downstairs to the music room where Josh is. "Babe come here you gotta see this" I say as I grab his hand and drag him upstairs. I lead him to the window and we look out. Jesse is kissing the girl. "Awe our little boys growing up" I say. "Well if he kisses girls now we don't have to worry about him seeing us making out" Josh says.

Jesse's room is too quiet. Jesse just like Josh, a child at heart. He's normally always noisy. Josh walks into his room and sees him with a naked girl in his bed.

"What the fuck Jesse" I say as I see him with bloody wrists and a rope around his neck.

(end of dream) A/N I hope the dream made sense. It's her dreaming of different parts their kids life

I woke up screaming and covered in sweat. I sat up breathing heavily and fast. "Baby what's wrong?" Josh says as he tries to calm me down. "I-I can't" I say before I start crying. Josh gives me a hug and pulls me into him. "You can't what Al?" Josh asks with concern in his voice. "We-we can't have the baby" I say. "It's okay Alli. We can get it taken care of tomorrow" Josh says as he kisses my head. We finally fell back asleep again.

I'm scared to say the least. I can't have the baby given to another person because in who would want a child that's half me and half Josh? To be serious you need to have a sperm donor to give it to someone else if not they just birth the baby then it's yours. Josh got up before me and called the hospital to tell them we were coming in. I was woken up to the smell of pancakes and because Bennie just jumped on me.

I crawl out of bed and stretch before heading to the kitchen. "Gordon Ramsey don't have anything on Chef Ramsay" I say as I wrap my around around Josh from behind. "Haha that's really awkward" Josh says as he notices me hugging him from behind. "Let go of me and we'll do it properly" Josh says while trying to get out of my grip. I move my arms and he kisses me before slipping behind me and wrapping his arms around me. Josh and I eat the pancakes for breakfast. They were actually surprisingly good! After breakfasts we threw our dishes in the dishwasher. I went to the bathroom to put my hair up and throw on some mascara. Josh and I both went into the bedroom to change. I grab some yoga pants and put them on. I walk over to Josh, gave him a kiss on the cheek and took the shirt he was putting going to wear and slipped it on. Josh pouted and grabbed another shirt.

During the ride to the hospital I started getting really nervous. Josh didn't let go of my hand the entire time. My palms were getting sweaty but he didn't care. We parked and when into the hospital to check in. The nurse called my name a few minutes later and I followed her in the back. I got changed into the hospital dress then the doctor came in and removed the baby. I got changed back into my clothes and the doctor came back in. "Miss Jones, you are not able to have children" the doctor said.

I didn't know what to do. I just left the room and started walking down the hall. I wanted to have a baby with Josh. I really do just not now. I could feel the tears on my face. I ignored all the people looking at me and asking if I was okay.

I burst through the doors into the waiting room. I ran right into Josh arms and cried. He hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead. "Alli, look at me. What's wrong? I know something's wrong" he said while looking me in the eyes. "J-josh" I choked out. "I-I'm not able to have k-kids" I say thru tears. Josh pulls me tighter into him. "P-pl-please don't leave me because of it" I choke out. "Alli look at me. I would never leave you. If you can't have kids, we won't have kids. Darli we'll make it through. I'm right beside you no matter what. I love you Alli" Josh says with tears forming in his eyes. The waiting room fills with 'awes' from the people in it. I kiss Josh.

We go back home and have a lazy day. We watch the whole Breaking Bad series on Netflix while cuddling, eating junk food and drinking coke zero. We both fell asleep cuddling on the couch.

A/N I tried to wrote this 3 times and it kept deleting but it's finally up!

I hope chapter 27 & 28 make up for not updating for a while! I'm gonna stick to longer chapters and more often!