Me, Eden and Emily (a Bensler fanfic)

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It had now been 3 months since eden had died in that hospital. Olivia wasn't taking it well at all. She barely slept or ate and she had refused to go back to work yet.

Elliot had taken on being the main care giver for Emily who also wasn't doing great. Elliot got Emily to a counselor 2 times a week that seemed to be helping but Emily still felt like when she lost her twin sister she had lost her mother as well.

"Daddy i...I have a dance recital this weekend....do you think mommy will come?" Emily asked.

"You know princess I think she wants to she's just really sad and not feeling well but you know what even if she doesn't I will be there I promise" he said kissing her cheek.

Emily sighed and looked down "mommy won't come cause....she doesn't love me anymore." She said in a saddened tone that broke elliots heart.

"Em that is not true your mommy loves you sooo much I know that and I think you do too. But I promise I will talk to her about it ok" he said stroking his daughters hair and kissed her forhead and watched her walk sadly in to the school.

Elliot knew now more than ever that he had to do something so he headed back home and up the stairs to his and Olivia's room where she was once again laying in bed. He pulled the blankets off and tossed some clothes at her gently "come on liv time to get up and out of that bed and be a person again." He demanded which he had never done before.

She was shocked and sat up "what the hell El?! I don't feel well ok" she said and went to pull the blankets back over her but elliot pulled them away.

"Olivia benson you have been saying that same thing for 3 months now. I get how hard it is I lost eden too but you do have another daughter that needs you!" He said in frustration.

"Fuck off Elliot! You have no idea how I feel! She was my daughter I gave birth to her! She wasn't your kid!" She said although deep down she didn't mean it.

"Wow! I've helped raise those girls since they were 2 years old and for the past 3 months I've been raising Emily alone trying to give you time to heal and...." he continued but olivia cut him off.

"I didn't ask you to! You want to leave then go! That's what men do anyway they hurt you or walk away ot both!" Olivia hissed.

He was so angry in that moment and he yelled "if I'm the bad guy here than why did Emily tell me just this morning that she thinks you don't love her anymore? Eden died and she lost a sister and now she feels like she lost you too!"

"What? Your lying she would never think that." Olivia said looking at Elliot with tears in her eyes.

He sighed and sat on the bed "she did liv. She misses you and so do I. You only leave this room to shower and you barely do that anymore. If you won't get up and get better for me than at least do it for Emily. Please liv."

Olivia looked away and down "how am I supposed to do this without Eden? Every time I leave this room all I see is memories of her."

Elliot touched her leg "get help liv. Maybe it's time you see a therapist."

She shook her head "no I'm not crazy." She said.

"Seeing a therapist does not make you crazy. Emily sees one twice a week and it helps her a bit but it would help her more if you did too." He said.

"What if all they want to do is drug me up? Or lock me away?" She said as tears escaped her eyes.

"Liv I'd never let that happen. And all you need to do is talk through things." He said.

She was still nervous but she agreed "alright...I'll make an appointment."

He kissed her head "and Emily has a dance recital this weekend and she practically begged to have you come."

Olivia nodded "i...I'll be there."