Without You

31

"Head up, stay strong, fake a smile, move on."

Taylor says to me as we walk towards my car. "Is that your motto?" I ask her and she smiles.

"Yep."

I open my door throwing my bag inside.

"Seriously Amore, are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine."

"Well I don't believe that, my momma ain't raise no fool, a psychopath maybe but no fool." I laugh and shake my head at her.

"that's crazy."

"I love crazy."

"Of course you do."

"I should get going. text me whenever, I'm not much of a caller." I nod at her. "Thanks I will." she walks away leaving me there. my phone pings with a text.

Adam: You okay? Taylor told me what happened.

That little snitch

Me: I'm fine

Me: I'm heading back home

Adam: Okay stay safe.

My phone gets snatched out of my hand and I look up to see Azriel standing there with Aaron and Alex. Azriel looks at my messages between me and Adam I try and grab my phone back but Aaron grabs my arm.

"I don't like this Amore." Azriel says staring down at me.

"Aww," I say sarcastically. "Are you mad? good because I don't give a fuck."

He looks at Aaron and he let's me go. "Don't you wanna fix things between us?" 

"I'm sorry, what language are you speaking? because it sounds like bullshit."

"Why are you always insulting me?"

"Insulting you?" I say surprised. "Honey I'm not insulting you I'm describing you."

He grabs my arm catching me off guard and pulls me toward him. "What is wrong with you? as much as I've done for you this is how you repay me? I was there for you after your sister died, I was there for you when your parents split up, I was there for you after you were raped. and this is how you repay me?"

I have been angry at the world for a long time. wondering why things like this happened to me? happened to people I loved, people who didn't deserve the bad that happened to them.

Azriel used to be there for me.

He used to care for me.

He used to love me.

Now all he has is a sick version of love.

He knew.

All this time he knew, and he did nothing about it.

I stare up at him, my eyes watering. "I can't believe you." I whisper and he looks at me confused.

"I can't believe you!" I yell at him and he let's go of my arm. "You knew what happened to me and you're still hanging out with them? you didn't even do anything about it."

"Amore," he says taking a step towards.

"No," I take a step back. "If you don't stay the fuck away from me I'll fucking kill you."

Alex snorts. "Awww she's mad."

I look at him feeling my blood boil.

Control your anger

Control your anger

Control your anger

I snatch my phone away from him and start to get inside my car when Aaron yanks me out making me fall on the ground.