WILD RIDE (Rafe Cameron x OC) *COMPLETE*

Chapter Fifty-Two (Alana) S3

CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO

SEASON THREE

Alana

ONE MONTH LATER

Poguelandia

The sun beats down hard most days. But I have plenty of sunscreen in the go-bag that everyone made fun of me for. For a month now they haven't made fun of me. They all come to me for supplies.

The snacks went quickly though. But the reusable water bottles and water filtering tablets have been the most helpful. We found a fresh water spring not too far from the shore where we've stayed in case we see a ship or a plane.

We've made plenty of fires with the amount of matches and accelerant that I had packed away. I even had some flares in there. Nothing got water logged and nothing got damaged. They all laughed at me for always being overly prepared but now? Now they all thank me.

I never brought up to Kie what Rafe had told me happened between them. I don't want to stew in it either. She knows what she did and I have a feeling that Sarah knows too, which is why they went so long hating each other. Why Sarah wanted to protect me from being with Rafe and was shocked that he was so ready to let the world know it was him and I.

John B only talks to me when Sarah is around. I think he's scared I'm going to snap on him again soon. I was angry for a while but that anger has subsided. There's nothing I can do to change what happened. There's nothing I can do when I'm stuck on an island. I have to forgive and move forward but I promise to myself that I will never forget. Because once we get home.. I'll speak privately with each person who I hold grievances with.

On the lifeboat, I met Cleo. The girl who held the knife to Rafe when John B and Sarah tried to get the gold back from Rafe and Ward. She knew who I was the moment I got into the boat and she apologized for using me as a threat against Rafe.

"That boy went crazy in love." Cleo said. "They say love makes you crazy, I never believed it before. Not until I saw that boy's eyes go black as the night sky when I said your name."

I ended up sick most of the time on the boat until we got to land. Since being on land, I've been much better. Thriving and exercising. Eating fish and fruit for almost every meal has been the healthiest I've ever been.

Except after a month of that being the only food all I can think about is a big plate of nachos from The Wreck. Fresh tortilla chips smothered in cheese, chicken, tomatoes, hot sauce, and jalapenos. The only thing that's keeping me motivated to get off this island is that once we get home I can have nachos.

We all have a dream meal right now. Sarah's is a burger and fries with a chocolate shake. John B's is a steak with roasted potatoes. JJ's is hot wings and a beer. Kie's is tacos with extra sour cream. Pope's is a Hawaiian pizza with extra pineapple. Cleo's is a chicken and rice bowl with tons of veggies and some type of sauce she tried to explain but I was so hungry I blocked it all out so I wouldn't cry from hunger.

I went toward the spring water to refill my water bottle and enjoy some alone time. It's strange being on such a big island with such few people but we don't really ever go anywhere by ourselves.

I refill my water and take a sip. It's actually cold today and feels really good. I lean against a tree and let the breeze from the top of the water cool my body down. I get overheated so easily out here and it's got to be due to the lack of air conditioning.

"I can't believe people used to live this way." JJ says as he walks over, takes his shirt off and gets into the water. "I wonder how many episodes of Law and Order I've missed."

"All of them. You hate that show." I remind him.

He shrugs. "Yeah but I'd watch it right now if it meant I could watch television. Shit, I'd even watch that doctor show you like."

Grey's Anatomy... Rafe and I would watch it. Well, I'd watch it. Rafe would complain the entire time that none of it was realistic and that they were doing surgical procedures all wrong and the diagnostics were completely fantasy- not even fictional. He preferred to watch surgical documentaries.

But whenever I turned it on, Rafe would sit there with me and watch it. He'd bitch, piss, and moan... But he'd watch it. I stopped it once when I was tired and he looked at me confused and asked why I turned it off. It was a two-part episode. I'd already seen it a few times and the cliff hanger of shutting it off didn't bother me.

It bothered Rafe. "You can't shut it off now. I want to know what happens." Rafe had said and when I looked at the clock it was nearly three in the morning. I handed him the remote and curled up on his lap. He played with my hair until I fell asleep. I woke up the next morning to find him still wide awake and watching more of it. He'd blown through the rest of that season and started the next one.

"JJ, no offence.. I kind of just wanted to be alone."

"No can do." JJ argues before dunking his head into the water. Coming back up and running his hand through his wet hair. "John B gave strict instructions that you are not to be left alone."

Asshole.

"And so he sends you."

"And so he sends me." JJ repeats back with a shit eating grin. He comes out of the water and sits next to me. "You miss him, huh?"

I nod. "I don't think this is a conversation I should be having with you of all people. But yeah.. I miss him a lot. I just wish he and I could talk. That we could sit down and just hear each other out and talk.."

"You've barely talked to anyone here." JJ points out the obvious. "I understand why you'd avoid me. But John B? Sarah? Kie? Pope? You've really only had conversations with Cleo."

"Because Cleo is the only person here who hasn't in some way betrayed me. With Sarah... It's just hard because when I look at her I miss Rafe. I want to talk to her about him because she's been with me through it all with him. It hurts, JJ... It really hurts."

He exhales. "I don't like that you love him but I understand."

"I just want to be alone with my thoughts..." I tell him

"Well," He shrugs. "You can be alone when you need to take your time to bathe in the river." He says in an old timey southern drawl, something straight out of Old Yeller that brings a laugh to my face.

"Hey," Sarah says panting as she comes over to me, bending down to where I'm sitting. "Do you have tampons in your go-bag or did you use them all? I need one. Badly."

I reach into my bag and open the plastic water safe bag that has the lot of tampons in it. I hand her a few of them and then some wet wipes to clean herself up. She asks me to check her shorts and they're clean on the outside, thankfully.

She walks off and I look at the bag in my hands. Staring at the tampons and blinking silently to myself. Counting how many are in the bag. Counting how many came in the box when I purchased it to stock my go-bag.

"Don't think too hard." JJ says jokingly.

I gave Sarah five. The box comes with 24.

There's 19 in this bag currently. I gave Sarah five. The box comes with 24. There's 19 currently in this bag. Kie is on the pill, she told us that. She doesn't get her period. Cleo has an IUD. No period for her either.

My chest tightens and I start to think... The last time I even put a tampon into my body... Midsummers. I bled the night of Midsummers but.. But that wasn't my period. Rafe said it was from losing my virginity. I tore and that's why I bled a little.

I haven't had my period in four months.

"JJ..." I look at him and tears fall from my eyes. "I need to get off this island... I need to find Rafe."

"Why?" He asks.

I hold my breath so I don't vomit. "Because I think I'm pregnant."