I don't feel like myself

Time has stopped moving

Intertwining path, burning bridges
Shared memories, forgotten trauma
Beautiful years, following suffering
Falling tears, tightening chest
Quiet sobs, unflattering mess

Bleeding wrists, broken glasses
Mourning  deaths, empty caskets
Friends to lovers, lovers to strangers
Addiction to pain, addiction to razors

Upon your happiness, came my demise
We were once like that too, but you wouldn't try
Self healing, a heart that can't mend
Shattered pieces, put back together to pretend

Mask the sorrow, happy facade
Inevitable death, peace that will last
Losing appetite, nausea and vomit
Leaning off the edge, cliff face at summit

Self-loving, self-deprecating
Self victimising, myself blaming
Begging to stay, willingly leaves
Healthy relationships, life I will grieve