I don't feel like myself

The word is pain

Longing, yearning, missing
Is the same feeling as pain
To have your body and soul ache for something
You cannot have.

I delve inside my mind
Seeing horrors of the past
The deeper I traverse
The darker it seems

At the bottom of gaping pit of sorrow
There's someone waiting
Waiting to be loved
But he knows he will never get it