I don't feel like myself

Happiness is temporary Misery is eternity

To pretend to be happy
To pretend to be alive
To mask the death hanging over my life
There was another I can't seem to recall
Who felt the same way I did
And together we became each others happiness
I became blind to the reality until they showed it to me with their absence
I was still dead and miserable
They went away to be with someone that made them happy
And that's okay
I became too comfortable with pretending
Too comfortable in the illusion
But they've opened my eyes as they've once closed it
The blades in my skin feel like nothing
The medicine like water, it doesn't do anything
My death creeps slowly
The story will be complete
A full circle
Round and round I go again